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Assalammualaikum.

Try to understand the meaning...

Got that meaning? 

No wonder I love this song. No wonder I love her songs. No wonder... 

I won't back down. I won't lose myself while trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care to lose me. I won't. Why should I live with people who don't care about me? They don't deserve to be in my best moments in the first place. 

So, now, I'm gonna throw everything outta my mind.

Yes, she got everything. From head to toe, she has everything. I'm no one compare to her. People listen to her. People love her. People like her. People need her. People long for her. Everything she says should be listened. No words comes from them. They obey her. But not me. 

It's like I'm invisible. A shadow in the faded light. Right, I was never there before. They see right through me. They don't see me. Only at times, when the light shines brightly and there, they see a bit of me. 





No words can come out of my mouth. It's sealed. No tears dropped out of my eyes. They're locked. Only my heart is there, unlocked. I don't want you to be between my lips for me to talk about you, not in my eyes for me to see you from afar, but in my heart, for me to cherish every moments I'm with you.

All these while, I've been thankful to be with you. But I guess you don't like me. You don't cherish our moments together. We're so different. We're not the same. You can't accept me for who I am. 

This is me. I can't change the way I live. I can't change the way I feel. I can't change the way my brain works. Cause this is me. I may be annoying at times. I may be stupid at times. I may be crazy at times. But you just have to accept me for who I am. I never try to be someone else. I live the way I used to live. Only people I'm connected with are different. 



So I hope you can accept me for who I am. Accept everything I say, everything I do, everything... Cause I never mean it. I am like this. I can't change myself. I miss the old me. I try to be the old me but I just can't. People around me are different. I also miss the old you. I miss the old us. Don't say that I don't try to change it to be normal. I did but you just seem not to notice it. 

You just have to realize that I'm not you. The way our brain works is different. I'm totally not like you. I may be hard at times but I'm soft. I don't take everything to my heart. I tend to forgive people easily. I tend to forget every hurt moments easily. But I just can't forget when people take serious everything I did. Lie. Yes, I admit, my brain remembers every single thing people said, people did that made me sad. But everything is the past. I move on easily. I forgive them. I pretend as if I'm okay. I sing, I dance, I rap as always. Forgive is forgive, forget is forget. 

I forgive people, I remember everything, but I never bring it up.

I remember every single thing you said and did that made me happy, sad, angry and frustrated. Everything. The happy moments cover the sad moments. The good words cover the bad words. The fun actions cover the annoy actions. Unknowingly, I smile. Cause I remember how cool our friendship are. 

I may be the hole on the floor, people can fall inside me. But I hope you can be the one who patches me back to normal. I hope you can be the one who will notice the slightest hole in me. But will you ever do that? Will you ever think of it? Will you ever care about me?

You thought I'm hypocrite but you just have to know that I'm different. Slightly different from everyone else, that you thought I'm hypocrite, I'm acting. You don't see right through me. You can't see everything in my eyes. You can never be in my shoes. Cause you never will. 



I'm touched when she said those words to me. I know how does she feel. This is me. I don't want people to feel the same hurt feeling I feel. I will do everything to make my beloved ones feel happy. I will fight for them. Even if they don't fight for me, even if they never stand up for me, but I just can't help but to fight for them. 

So, you can't just blame me for that. I know what I'm doing. I'm not THAT stupid. I appreciate them. I'm thankful to them. Therefore, I fight against the will. I try. 



You are lucky. So damn lucky. You have everything while me? You know my stories. But you never get what I feel. You never be in my shoes. You will never feel what I feel. But that belongs to the past. You never know my stories again. You never know what I feel again. 

Friends come and go, but I've never thought you'll be one of them.

You move on while I'm still hoping you'll turn back. I'm standing here, waiting for you. But if you never turn back, I guess, I have to run and keep on running until I find someone who truly cares for me, who will never ignore me despite everything I said or did. But just so you know, even though I'm running for the better, I'm still there by your side. I'm not letting you go. 

If you ever... Ever miss me, close your eyes, open your mind and remember our happy moments. 

By then, I may be moving on. I may be change for the better. But my heart will never change. Cause I'm slightly different. Cause I am different.









Right. Maybe you don't read my post, but just so you know, I miss the old you.

That's all. I miss you. I'm sorry. Assalammualaikum.

Labels: fight, friends, heart, myself, sad, school

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Syafiqah terlanggar budak tu and I thought it was her classmate sebab dia cakap a bit kasar but in the end, budak tu is budak yang plg annoying in form dia, as I was told by Syafiqah.

Assalamualaikum.

Hey, people! Hello hello holla lalala. Lamanya tak update! Rindu.

As usual... Saya nak cerita pasal hari before-2 tapi saya tak nak tulis pasal hari Khamis. Sebab saya tak ingat apa yang berlaku hari tu, Bukannya tak ingat, ingat sangat but nothing special happened pasa hari tu, except for exam KKQ.

Susah gila-2 nak mampus!

Saya tak baca buku langsung! Part yang saya boleh jawab - tajwid. Saya memang suka tajwid dari darjah 4 lagi. Tapi kdg-2 terlupa. Tapi steady, tajwid KKQ F1 baru yang biasa, takde yang extraordinary yang saya tak pernah jumpa lagi. HAHA XD. Kalau fail or dapat C, saya redha. Tapi mungkin saya nangis. Waa :'(

Khamis tu birthday ayah saya. So, nenek saya ajak dinner kat luar. Then, sementara tunggu masa tu, saya cakap kat mak saya.

"Cuba teka saya dapat berapa Maths?"

"C?"

Dalam hati, teruk sangat tu. Saya senyum je. Saya cakap saya dapat A, but hampir dapat B. Then, dia cakap, okay lah tu. BI, 85. Dia okay aje. Arab pun, dia okay aje. HAHA XD. Saya tak beritahu markah Sejarah saya lagi. Nanti-2 baru saya nak bgtau.




What did I mean by imitating me?



Semalam, ustaz suruh hafal surah Al-Imran ayat 26, 27. Saya gila-2 lupa pasal tu. So, saya rush lah hafal. Hafal, hafal, then, saya tengok Syahirah pergi baca kat ustaz. Lagi rasa nak rush. Lepas tu pulak, nampak Shimi dah habis baca kat ustaz. Lagilah rasa nak rush tu membuak-buak. Syahirah tak habis baca lagi dengan ustaz. Saya hafal ayat 27 tu, then, nampak Faresha tengah baca kat ustaz. Terus saya gi tunggu kat barisan menunggu.

Bila masa ada barisan menunggu?

Tak sampai 10 saat diri, saya terus pergi belakang, cakap dengan Faten. Tengah cakap, saya nampak Syahirah nak jalan pergi kat ustaz. Mana boleh, tempat saya tu! Tapi tak reserved lagi. HAHA XD. So, saya cepat-2 lari pergi depan. Syahirah nampak and dia senyum. HAHA XD.

Saya baca dulu kat ustaz. Saya dapat band 5. Ustaz cakap, boleh baca lagi untuk dpt band 6. Saya nak sangat band 6! So, saya pergi duduk kat tempat saya, lancarkan hafalan dan betulkan tajwid. Saya cabut spect sebab rasa serabut.

Bila bab menghafal, saya cepat serabut. Therefore, saya akan bergerak sambil hafal.

Bila serabut, cabut spect, pergi belakang and hafal. Mula-2, saya jalan back and forth kat belakang tu, hafal. Then, Aishah and Faten sekali hafal sambil jalan-2 kat belakang. So, saya pergi jalan sekeliling kelas sambil hafal. Ayat 27 tak ada masalah but ayat 26, saya asyik-2 lupa perkatan tukti. HAHA XD. So, kene baca balik. Saya sampai ketuk-2 jari saya kat tangan sambil hafal. Saya pusing gila banyak kali.

Tengah hafal sambil pusing-2 tu, saya dengar budak laki cakap pasal bende ntah masa saya jalan tepi diaorg. Saya tengah ketuk-2 jari saya kat palm saya sambil hafal. Then, Aidil tiru, rasanya. Saya buat bodo aje. Then, saya kept on buat bende alah tu. Takde masa saya nak kisah pasal diaorang. Masa saya otw ke belakang, saya jalan and then, bila dah sampai belakang, saya lompat and pusing ke depan. Then, saya ternampak Aidil tiru sebiji-sebiji everything yang saya buat! Budak-2 lelaki lain ketawa.

Saya cupped my face and duduk yang tak berapa nak duduk kat lantai tu. Saya try stop kejap, mana tahu saya boleh cepat hafal bila buat gitu. But nah, tak berapa nak lancar. Saya tak suka. Tajwid kene betul! Saya pandang je depan, nampak Aidil and there he was, imitating me.

Annoyed, saya bangun and jalan sekeliling kelas balik. Saya try banyak kali. Saya pusing banyak kali. Selagi tak lancar, saya tak akan duduk kat tempat saya. Saya tak endahkan budak-2 lelaki tu. Diaorang buat apa pun saya tak tahu, Yang saya tahu, masa saya jalan, Nisa cakap, diaorang meniru saya. Saya stop, pandang diaorang, nampak Aidil buat bende ntah. Saya tak pakai spect, tak jelas sangat. Tapi nampaklah yang dia kinda macam imitate bende yang saya buat tadi.

Habis Agama, still tak baca kat ustaz. Masa rehat saya gi, but ustaz tak ada dekat bilik guru. Lepas rehat, BI. Kita belajar short story One is One and All Alone written by Nicholas Fisk. Ke tak? Saya tulis aje. HAHA XD. Trish has a clone, then, teacher cakap something pasal imitate. Saya pandang Aidil. Teacher cakap...

"If someone imitates you, you can slap him or her"

"But then, him or her will slap you back"

Aihh, spoil mood aje. HAHA XD. To be honest, saya tak pernah aware or macam takut kat guys yang sama umur dengan saya. But Aidil ni lain. Dia creepy gila. Saya tak tahu kenapa but dia orang first yang buat saya macam aware nak buat something kat dia. Tapi saya tak buat apa pun.

Saya baik :D

Then, tadi, masa kat sekolah, before sesi penggambaran, kita pergi bengkel. But then, sapa ntah cakap, pergi masuk kelas. So, kita otw masuk kelas. Kat tangga, nampak people kerumun cikgu Tarmizi. Dia pakai baju hitam! Saya pergi tengok. Then, diaorang ckp, cg Tarmizi ganti cg diaorang yang KT. So, PK kene gi bengkel. Bila kita pusing nak gi bengkel, Izz cakap, masuk kelas. So, kita naik kelas. Susun kedudukan and such lah.

Before turun, masa first tu, kita dah susun kedudukan dah. Saya dah ukur ketinggian dalam kelas. Saya antara 6 orang perempuan yang paling pendek dalam kelas. Sedihnya! Kenapa? Saya akan minum protein banyak-2! Saya punya kedudukan sebelah Aifaa and Hanis. Oh my adik! Depan saya, Izzati and Amira. HAHA XD. Serious cakap, freestyle "ONE SHOT" kitaorang memang buruk. Or saya je yang fikir gitu?

Masa dia cakap freestyle, saya dah fikir nak buat One Shot and then, tiba-2, Auni cakap, "One Shot" so, saya and Aifaa buat style One Shot. Izzati pun buat, rasanya. Kakak buat style One Shot bila kali kedua tu. Saya rasa muka saya buruk gila-2 nak mampus. Oh my...

Then, PK turun, pergi bengkel but then, cg cakap, tinggal 10 minit aje lagi. So, cikgu suruh naik kelas Saya nampak Danish, anak cikgu Hidayati. Cutenya! Saya hesitated nak pergi dekat dengan Danish. So, saya senyum je. Dia tengok saya dengan mata besar dia tu. Cutenya! Lepas beberapa saat, saya pergi dekat Danish and pegang pipi dia. Then, semua kerumun dia. Saya kat tepi dia tapi jauh sikit. Aina, Auni and Aifaa kat belakang cikgu. Dia tengok je kita masa mula-2 tu. Cikgu cakap, pergilah masuk kelas. Kita tak nak. Nak main dengan dia lama-2. Masa tu, dia tengah makan. Lepas tu, dia lambai kat kita banyak kali. Dia excited lepas lama-2 tu! Dia macam malu-2 itu.

Danish banyak lambai kat saya. Then, dia pusing malu-2. Saya squealed. Dia sangat cute! Izz cakap, dia lambai sebab dia nak suruh saya pergi. HAHA XD. Tak mungkin! Saya tak akan pergi. LOLOLOL. Aifaa lambai kat dia. Dia pun lambai kat adik saya. Tahulah adik saya tu cute ^_^ Turun-temurun daripada saya. HAHA XD. Oh yeah, baby.

Cikgu banyak kali suruh kita masuk kelas. Halau nampak. Hehehe...

Then, Shimi and Fikri masuk bilik guru, buat apa ntah. Aina cakap, tu Kakak Mimi. Tiba-2, Danish jadi macam marah. Takut Amira ke sapa ntah yang tengok muka dia. So cute! Lepas tu, dia okay dah. Dia senyum. Nampak sangat dia tak suka kehadiran Kakak Mimi tu. HAHA XD. But Shimi tak keluar lagi dari bilik guru tu.

Lepas lama tu, cikgu basuh tangan and mulut dia. Then, dia cakap, "Bye Bye" sambil lambai. Eh, budak ni, jangan cakap gitu! Kakak tak nak pergi! Tak nak! Tak nak! Cikgu pegang dia. Semua dah nak blah. Diaorang semua dah diri elok-2 and otw nak keluar. Aina pergi kat Danish, pegang Danish, nak salam. But then, Danish macam tarik tangan dia. Saya pun gi kat Danish, saya pegang tangan dia. Saya tengok, cikgu tak pandang sini. Dia cakap dengan Fikri, kalau tak silap saya. Saya pun, apa lagi?

Green light, line clear, ready, set, go!

Then, Aina jealous gila! Dia pukul saya banyak kali! Tahu lah jealous! HAHA XD. Saya sangat happy! Gla-2 happy masa tu! Saya tak tahu whether Shimi and Fikri nampak saya kissed Danish, but saya tak kisah. Saya sangat happy masa tu! Macam orang gila saya ingat kat Danish! Kat naik tangga, kakak Amira cakap, tukar lagu "I Got A Boy" jadi "I Kissed A Boy". So, saya nyanyi gitu. Hehehe...

Dalam kelas, Aina tulis...



Saya tengah letak buku dalam meja, malas nak padam bende alah tu. Then, kakak tulis something kat whiteboard and then, dia padam. Saya cakap kat kakak, tlg padam bende alah tu. Then, kita undi, majoriti tak nak padam. Then, Aina cakap, tulis dia kelas form 2! Then, Aina tulis, dia kelas 2 apa ntah. HAHA XD. Saya tak sure whether batch 99' SMART ada tak nama tu. Rasa macam takde. Saya tak kenal sangat yang lelaki. Tapi rasa macam takde. Ke ada? Rasa takde.

Saya state, dia bakal suami saya. Ohohoho. Diaorang cakap, saya terlalu tua untuk Danish. Eleh, beza 13 tahun aje! Takde lah tua sangat. But... Tua lah jugak sebenarnya. HAHA XD.

Tiba-2, cikgu Nida masuk kelas and dia nampak bnde alah kat whiteboard tu. Aina pun cakap bende sama. Saya cepat-2 gi padam bende alah tu. Then, cikgu cakap, "tak lah. Mesti awak cium ayah awak sebelum pergi sekolah, kan?" Saya angguk. "Betul tu!" Then, Aina cakap, "baru je cikgu! Kita nampak!" Auni angguk. HAHA XD.

Then, saya explain kat cikgu, tu anak cg Hidayati, baru 1 tahun! Takpelah kalau saya nak kiss dia ke apa. Tau lah semua jealous dengan saya sebab tak dapat kiss Danish! HAHA XD.

Masa lepas rehat, Adlin cakap, dia ah tahu saya kissed a boy. HAHA XD. Nasib baik dia aje yang tahu. Belum satu kelas tahu lagi. Steady... My twin pun tak tahu lagi. Hehehe...

Saya nak tulis lirik lagu I KISSED A BOY kejap lagi.

Masa Sejarah, cikgu nak bagi markah. Then, Atiqah ajak saya teman gi mana ntah. Saya pun, ikut je lah. Ingatkan dia nak suruh tolong ambil kertas exam. Tapi kertas exam rasanya ada dekat kita. Then, lepas keluar, saya tanya dia, dia nak pergi mana

Tadi, saya try nak tolong my twin dapat A for Sejarah. Kesian dia. Saya ingat dia biase aje apat B, rupa-rupanyam dia nangis. Saya rasa dia nangis lepas saya tanya. Sebab lepas saya tanya and cakap kat Izzati, Aina gi kat Hamizah. Lepas tu, saya gi kat Hamizah jugak. Muka dia sedih. Dia macam baru lepas nangis. But then, saya gi belakang, sebab saya tak aware pasal tu. Then, Aina bgtau yang dia nangis. Saya kesian kat dia.

Trust me, I know how sad it is to get B, especially when you are just so damn close to get A!

So, saya gi depan, tengok kertas exam dia. Dia cari soalan yang boleh tambahkan dia markah. Aina pun gi depan. Aina suruh saya nyanyi lagu Mary Had A Little Lamb. Saya pun terus nyanyi guna suara husky-crazy saya. Syahirah ketawa masa saya nyanyi. Auni pandang saya semacam. Shimi yang jauh tengok saya macam saya orang gila. Memang nak kene Mimi ni! Then, saya nyanyi lagi lagu ntah apa-2. And Mimi kept on tengok macam saya ni orang gila.

Saya stopped nyanyi and tolong Hamizah cari markah. Saya check satu-2 soalan tu. Memang confirm salah. Then, saya nampak satu target. Soalan 14. Ramai orang salah, except for a few people. Saya cakap dengna Hamizah pasal tu. Auni dengar. Dia sokong. Dia cakap, cemerlang maksud dia lain. Then, saya pergi kat cikgu. Saya tanya pasal soalan 14 tu dulu. Cikgu cakap, batullah jawapan dia B. Then, cikgu cakap, cikgu dapat jawapan dia from buku teks. Dalam buku tulis, dia tulis bijak, bukan cemerlang. Then, cikgu cakap, tengok aras dia. TP. Kene fikir rationally or logically guna akal lah. Cikgu cakap, cemerlang maksud dia sama dengan bijak. Tapi ramai yang cakap lain. Saya sekali lah! Cikgu cakap, cari soalan lain!

Saya cakap, cemerlang ni lain sangat. Saya siap tunjuk kat cikgu maksud cemerlang kat buku teks Sivik tu! Cikgu tak puas hati. Cikgu suruh pergi cari kamus dewan! Saya nak gi cari but before that, saya cari kamus BM-BI. Then, saya ajak Auni pergi cari kamus dewan or tanya cg BM. Kita gi bilik guru, tengok, cg Anuaruddin tak ada kat meja dia. Then, nampak cikgu Mela. Auni tanya, dia cikgu apa? Dia cakap, dia cikgu bahasa. Kita terus tanya, cemerlang dengan bijak maksud dia sama or lain? Cikgu cakap lain. Cikgu buka kamus bende ntah tu. Then, cikgu suruh kita salin maksud tu. 

Ternyata, lain gila maksud dia!

Saya dengan Auni pergi naik kelas, saya terus serbu cikgu. Lain! but then, cikgu cakap, nanti cikgu bincang dengan cikgu Sejarah lain. Saya harap my twin dapat A for Sejarah. Sikit aje lagi! Then, Aina, Syahirah and sapa lagi cakap, jawapan tu mmg B. Aina tak bagi saya cakap sebenarnya. Berapa kali dia cakap ntah. Saya pun lupa. HAHA XD. Dia cakap, kesian kat sapa yang dapat 80% yang buat jawapan B. Masalahnya, saya tak tahu pun Aishah dah dapat 80% masa tu. And saya tak tahu pun dia buat B. Cikgu pun bagi kita fight against jawapan tu. So, bila cikgu dah bagi, kita gunakanlah chance tu. 

Saya believe ada lagi people yang buat C yang dapat 68 or 78 yang lain. Mana tahu... Sebab saya rasa ramai buat C. Kita tengok je lah jawapan tu nanti. Kalau salah, salahlah. Tak dapatlah Hamizah A. And confirm lah Aina dapat no. 1. Tapi at least kita try fight. Saya tak kisah kalau markah saya tambah ke tak. Still gred sama. Masalahnya, Hamizah ni. Antara A or B. Sikit je lagi. Kene fight lah. Rasanya kalau awak dapat 78 pun, awak akan fight. Menipu sgt kalau ckp, awk akan biar je awk dpt 78%. Try to be in her shoes and you'll know how bad it feels to get 78. 

Hmmm... Okay lah. Tu je. Saya rasa dah panjang dah. Assalammualaikum.

Labels: annoy, answers, exam, fight, friends

________________________________________________________________________________________ Assalammualaikum.


Esok pelajar perempuan SMART kene suntik/cucuk! Aigoo... I'm so freaking nervous right now! That thing is just soo scary! Oh I wish my mom or my dad will be with me tomorrow. -takot, takot- Kalau mama or ayah ade, x de la takot sgt. Ingat lagi mase kecik-kecik, saye selalu kene inject(?)
-ni ke eja perkataan tuh??-

Sekarang nih, dah lama x kene inject so, takot sikit. Eh, eh. Silap. Takot banyak. He3x...


I hope I won't cry tomorrow. Well, I can't stand any pain or else, I'll cry. -Kawan saye ckp, bakal suami saye nanti kene pandai pujuk saye sbb sye always nangis je- Tch. Mane ade saye nangis je. Saye ni bknnye kuat sgt pon nangis. Kadang-2 je.

Ckp psl nangis, teringat plak kat Hasif and Hafiz. Mase tuh, ade jamuan hari raya kat sekolah. Saye bknnye suka sgt pon makan kuih and blah blah nih. So, saye pergi merayau. -bukan merayau sbarnye. Pergi kejar my adik-adik angkat- Kejar, punye kejar, dapatlah tangkap dieorg. Lepas dapat tangkap, saya mintak belon Fahmi. Then, Fahmi pon bagi sebab die tu mmg baik. -saye mintak belon tu sebab belon yg lain dah habis stok. HAHA XD-


Mase kat kelas, saye main-2 la dgn belon tuh. Ye, saye mengaku, saye a bit childish dlm hal-2 yg mcm tuh. Back to my story, Hasif and Hafiztu macam jelez saye ade belon tuh. Hafiz suruh la si pakcik Hasif ni pecahkn belon tu. Pastu, Hasif pergi baling something yg tajam dekat belon tuh and..... Belon tu pecah.

Saye punye lah terkejut! Saye pon ape lagi, pergi la kejar dia walopon tgh pakai kain. Then, lepas dpt die, sye pergi pukul die and tumbuk die. Tumbuk dkt badan je. Dah la mase saye pukul die tuh kite tgh dekat dpn kelas. Semua org tgk! Bila pikir-pikir balik, mmg malu giler! But mse tuh sye tgh bengang sgt ngan Hasif tuh. So, I don't even give a damn la kat org-2 yg tgk 'free' show tuh. Lepas dah puas hati, sye pergi kat tmpt saye balik, menangis. Then, after sye dah calmed myself down, Hafiz siap melutut lagi mintak maaf. Sye senyap je. Mase tu x de mood nk maafkan org. Byk kali jugak la Hafiz mintak maaf.


Well, sejak hari tuh, Hafiz teros jadi baik! Serious, x tipu! But kn, ade bdk-2 laki cerite la psl kejadian tu kat ustazah saye. And her reaction was like: O.o?
-biasalah, orang yg mcm perempuan melayu terakhir dlm kelas nih boleh pukul org lelaki smbil ckp perkataan "bodoh"-

But nasib baik lah ustazah x marah.


 HAHA XD. It's such an embarrassing story, actually.


Okay, okay. Back to the topic, harap-2 bende tu x sakit. Aminn... But kn, my sis ckp, junior-2 die ade yg menangis after kene inject tuh. Kakak saye x nangis sbb die x kena. Mase tahun die dulu x de lagi bende-2 yg macam nih. Then, kakak sye ckp lagi, suntikan ni lebih sakit drpd suntikan ape bende ntah name die - untuk mengelakkan sawan.


So, yeah.. Nak pegi buat hw and doa byk-2. Bye and assalammualaikum. Adios!

Labels: balloon, embarrassed, fight, HPV, school

________________________________________________________________________________________ Okay, it's me again. Sorry.. Ingatkn xdi tu my last update 4 this week but x .. haha ..
Ni, saye nk ckp psl my younger brother.

Xdi, saye suruh dia tolong sye sidai baju cuz my mom x de kat rumah -dia kat hospital with my other brother-
Then, ade satu cloth tu die x nak angkat drpd washing machine tuh. Saye suruh dia angkat but still, die x nak. Pastu, sye mrh dia. Pastu die ckp, "taik la ko nih"

And.. my reaction mcm nih : O.o?

WTH? Saye mmg pantang klu org ckp saye bende ntah ape-2 nih. Then, saye balas balik, "ko la. Giler"

Pastu, nk x nk, die angkat jugak la bende tuh. Pastu, mase nak sidai kain, die ckp lagi bende-2 yg ntah apa-2.
Eiii .. Kalau nk ikutkn hati, mmg die dah kene penampar dah nih. Mulut x jage langsong! Tapi nasib baik name saye Sabrina. HAHA XD. So, sabar je la. But, ade gak la, sye ckp die x de otak.

Haha. Kdg-2, mulut saye ni pon boleh thn jugak. Mcm semalam tuh, mmg habis semua perkataan keluar sbb bende yg same. Giler punye budak la. Seriously, what kind of brother is that? Cube la try tlg saye sikit. Ni x, pemalas. Main bola je tau. Ye lah, pakcik nk jadi goalkeeper. -bluewwkkkkkk-

Aisyy.. nasib, nasib dpt adik yg mcm tu. -nasib baik die tu bukan kaki yg suka main laptop. Kalau die bce nih, mmg habis lah, perang besar nnty-

Bile tulis psl perang nih, ingat plak last year, mse my birthday. Saye gadoh dgn budak tu pasal tv. Dah la mase tu saye baru balik POLISAS - ade kem motivasi and blah blah. Mmg letih giler la mse tuh. Pastu, mse malam tu, die asyik tgk bola je. Mane org x bosan! BOLA, BOLA, BOLA! Setiap mase die nak ckp psl bola! Tgk pon, tgk bola. Pegi la tgk bola kat tv depan! Mengade.

Back to the story, sye pon ambik remote and tukar channel. Then, adik sye tu mrh la. pastu, die pegi off tv and diri dpn tv tuh. Sye suruh die gi tepi but die x nak. Then, ape lagi... sye pon cubit die. Pastu, die pukul sye. -mmg sakit gak la die pukul. Haha, mengaku-
Lepas tuh, sye pukul lgy sakit drpd die pukul sye smpai die nangis. Then, saye kene mrh ngan my dad. Aigoo...

Tu lah antare birthday saye yg plg x best. Well, sbnarnye, the last 3 years nih mmg ade je yg kena bila birthday saye.

Mase saye darjah 4 - Saye tertidur. Then, my family members pulak yg pegi tiup lilin and makan cake tuh. Alaa, psl makan kek sye x kesah sgt. But psl tiup lilin and potong kek tu je yg penting. X kan la kek saye, org lain plak yg gi tiup lilin n potong kek! Mmg giler sedih la. Sampai mse pagi 15 Mei 2009 tuh saye nangis. Bila gi skolah, kwn sye ckp, mmg nmpk tande-2 sye menangis. Buat malu je..

Then, mse saye darjah 5 - My dad x balik rumah. Saye x ingat sgt mse tuh.. But yg sye ingat, that's my last birthday yg sye sambut dgn my late grandpa. Ahhh... I miss my late grandpa so damn much! -if only I can turn back time. I'll hug him soo many times on that day and I'll take pictures with him-

Mase darjah 6 pulak, yg tu lah - yg gadoh tuh..

So, harap-2, this year punye birthday best! Aminn...... I'll try to make this year punye birthday elok even kalau sye sambot tu without my sister and my grandpa.

Labels: birthday, curse, family, fight

PAST ♥

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Mine ;
Name : A!da $abr!na
Nicknames : A!da/$abr!na/Angel/BDA/Blue Diamond Angel/Alien/Dodo/Clown/Aidada/Chanyeol's Wifey
Korean name : Park Angelina
Birthday : 14th May 1999
State : EXO Planet, Earth, Saturn
Status : Officially taken by Chanyeol

Likes ;
☆ Kpop
☆ Chanyeol
☆ Blogging
☆ McFlurry Oreo
☆ Geronimo Stilton
☆ Fanfics
☆ Rapping

Hates ;
☆ Anons
☆ Copypasters
☆ Kpop haters
☆ Haters
☆ Annoying person
☆ Liars

Facts ;
◕‿◕ Currently studying in SMART
◕‿◕ I express my feelings through fictions
◕‿◕ Sometimes I think I'm good in writing and sometimes I think I'm not
◕‿◕ Deep inside me, I want to write an English novel on my own
◕‿◕ Creating posters is one of my hobbies actually
◕‿◕ Love to read English novels but never really finish reading every word in them
◕‿◕ I can get so touched when I read sad fictions
◕‿◕ I love to collect quotes from fictions
◕‿◕ I only read angst fictions- kinda
◕‿◕ Wish I can be fluent in Arabic, English, Korean, Japanese, Mandarin and Urdu ASAP
◕‿◕ I don't really like to do the same thing over and over again. Get sick of it seriously
◕‿◕ I have flaws but I'm thankful for that
◕‿◕ I want someone who doesn't care about me embarrassing myself. Example: If I accidentally make fun of myself, then he would laugh and then he would say things like "haha you're so embarrassing but who cares? My love for you won't ever change." Cheesy enough heh?
◕‿◕ And I want that someone to love me for being random. Example: When I write about random things out of the topic we're talking about, he would be saying things like, oh you're so random, why do I like you in the first place and such. Too cheesy I kennot
◕‿◕ Sometimes I talk too much
◕‿◕ I am so not romantic but I love romantic things but I'm so geli with all those romance thingy

"Capture well the moment because it is evanescent."

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Sya-Syahirah | Ana Marlina | Ana Min-Ji | My Lost Star | You're Cold, I like! | Loving You Secretly | Can't You See? | Blue Diamond Angel | Chanyeol's Wifey | ASK BDA

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Stories of De Angel

I express my feelings by writing stories.

Synopsis !

Prologue !

Chapter 1 !

Chapter 2 !

Coming soon !

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My Asianfanfics Fictions

My Lost Star !

Can't You See? !

Coming soon !

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Never In My Shoes

Sunday, March 10, 2013 | 2:12 PM | 0 comments

Assalammualaikum.

Try to understand the meaning...

I can almost see it

That dream I am dreaming

But there's a voice inside my head saying"You'll never reach it"

Every step I'm taking

Every move I make feels

Lost with no direction

My faith is shaking

But I gotta keep trying

Gotta keep my head held high

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it moveAlways gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb

The struggles I'm facing

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes might knock me down

But no, I'm not breaking

I may not know it

But these are the moments that

I'm gonna remember most, yeah

Just gotta keep going

And I, I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

'Cause there's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be a uphill battle

Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

There's always gonna be another mountain

I'm always gonna wanna make it move

Always gonna be an uphill battle

Somebody's gonna have to lose

Ain't about how fast I get there

Ain't about what's waiting on the other side

It's the climb, yeah!

Keep on moving, keep climbing

Keep the faith, baby

It's all about, it's all about the climb

Keep the faith, keep your faith, whoa

Got that meaning? 

No wonder I love this song. No wonder I love her songs. No wonder... 

I won't back down. I won't lose myself while trying to hold on to someone who doesn't care to lose me. I won't. Why should I live with people who don't care about me? They don't deserve to be in my best moments in the first place. 

So, now, I'm gonna throw everything outta my mind.

Yes, she got everything. From head to toe, she has everything. I'm no one compare to her. People listen to her. People love her. People like her. People need her. People long for her. Everything she says should be listened. No words comes from them. They obey her. But not me. 

It's like I'm invisible. A shadow in the faded light. Right, I was never there before. They see right through me. They don't see me. Only at times, when the light shines brightly and there, they see a bit of me. 

No words can come out of my mouth. It's sealed. No tears dropped out of my eyes. They're locked. Only my heart is there, unlocked. I don't want you to be between my lips for me to talk about you, not in my eyes for me to see you from afar, but in my heart, for me to cherish every moments I'm with you.

All these while, I've been thankful to be with you. But I guess you don't like me. You don't cherish our moments together. We're so different. We're not the same. You can't accept me for who I am. 

This is me. I can't change the way I live. I can't change the way I feel. I can't change the way my brain works. Cause this is me. I may be annoying at times. I may be stupid at times. I may be crazy at times. But you just have to accept me for who I am. I never try to be someone else. I live the way I used to live. Only people I'm connected with are different. 

So I hope you can accept me for who I am. Accept everything I say, everything I do, everything... Cause I never mean it. I am like this. I can't change myself. I miss the old me. I try to be the old me but I just can't. People around me are different. I also miss the old you. I miss the old us. Don't say that I don't try to change it to be normal. I did but you just seem not to notice it. 

You just have to realize that I'm not you. The way our brain works is different. I'm totally not like you. I may be hard at times but I'm soft. I don't take everything to my heart. I tend to forgive people easily. I tend to forget every hurt moments easily. But I just can't forget when people take serious everything I did. Lie. Yes, I admit, my brain remembers every single thing people said, people did that made me sad. But everything is the past. I move on easily. I forgive them. I pretend as if I'm okay. I sing, I dance, I rap as always. Forgive is forgive, forget is forget. 

I forgive people, I remember everything, but I never bring it up.

I remember every single thing you said and did that made me happy, sad, angry and frustrated. Everything. The happy moments cover the sad moments. The good words cover the bad words. The fun actions cover the annoy actions. Unknowingly, I smile. Cause I remember how cool our friendship are. 

I may be the hole on the floor, people can fall inside me. But I hope you can be the one who patches me back to normal. I hope you can be the one who will notice the slightest hole in me. But will you ever do that? Will you ever think of it? Will you ever care about me?

You thought I'm hypocrite but you just have to know that I'm different. Slightly different from everyone else, that you thought I'm hypocrite, I'm acting. You don't see right through me. You can't see everything in my eyes. You can never be in my shoes. Cause you never will. 

I'm touched when she said those words to me. I know how does she feel. This is me. I don't want people to feel the same hurt feeling I feel. I will do everything to make my beloved ones feel happy. I will fight for them. Even if they don't fight for me, even if they never stand up for me, but I just can't help but to fight for them. 

So, you can't just blame me for that. I know what I'm doing. I'm not THAT stupid. I appreciate them. I'm thankful to them. Therefore, I fight against the will. I try. 

You are lucky. So damn lucky. You have everything while me? You know my stories. But you never get what I feel. You never be in my shoes. You will never feel what I feel. But that belongs to the past. You never know my stories again. You never know what I feel again. 

Friends come and go, but I've never thought you'll be one of them.

You move on while I'm still hoping you'll turn back. I'm standing here, waiting for you. But if you never turn back, I guess, I have to run and keep on running until I find someone who truly cares for me, who will never ignore me despite everything I said or did. But just so you know, even though I'm running for the better, I'm still there by your side. I'm not letting you go. 

If you ever... Ever miss me, close your eyes, open your mind and remember our happy moments. 

By then, I may be moving on. I may be change for the better. But my heart will never change. Cause I'm slightly different. Cause I am different.

Dear you,

I miss you,

I love you,

I need you,

I don't care how much you annoy me,

I don't care how much you ignore me,

I don't care how much you hate me,

I am still here,

Waiting for you.

But you have a replacement,

I'm not by your side anymore,

I'm not there for you anymore,

I'm just a stranger to you,

Who will never be in your heart.

Just so you know,

I really appreciate our friendship,

I am grateful to have you,

I will cherish our moments together,

I truly am sorry.

We are different,

You are black, I am white,

You are fire, I am water,

You are hot, I am cold,

You are you, I am me.

Right. Maybe you don't read my post, but just so you know, I miss the old you.

That's all. I miss you. I'm sorry. Assalammualaikum.

Love you guys, bubblebye ^_^

Labels: fight, friends, heart, myself, sad, school

Imitating Me + I Kissed A Boy

Saturday, March 9, 2013 | 10:35 PM | 0 comments

Syafiqah terlanggar budak tu and I thought it was her classmate sebab dia cakap a bit kasar but in the end, budak tu is budak yang plg annoying in form dia, as I was told by Syafiqah.

Assalamualaikum.

Hey, people! Hello hello holla lalala. Lamanya tak update! Rindu.

As usual... Saya nak cerita pasal hari before-2 tapi saya tak nak tulis pasal hari Khamis. Sebab saya tak ingat apa yang berlaku hari tu, Bukannya tak ingat, ingat sangat but nothing special happened pasa hari tu, except for exam KKQ.

Susah gila-2 nak mampus!

Saya tak baca buku langsung! Part yang saya boleh jawab - tajwid. Saya memang suka tajwid dari darjah 4 lagi. Tapi kdg-2 terlupa. Tapi steady, tajwid KKQ F1 baru yang biasa, takde yang extraordinary yang saya tak pernah jumpa lagi. HAHA XD. Kalau fail or dapat C, saya redha. Tapi mungkin saya nangis. Waa :'(

Khamis tu birthday ayah saya. So, nenek saya ajak dinner kat luar. Then, sementara tunggu masa tu, saya cakap kat mak saya.

"Cuba teka saya dapat berapa Maths?"

"C?"

Dalam hati, teruk sangat tu. Saya senyum je. Saya cakap saya dapat A, but hampir dapat B. Then, dia cakap, okay lah tu. BI, 85. Dia okay aje. Arab pun, dia okay aje. HAHA XD. Saya tak beritahu markah Sejarah saya lagi. Nanti-2 baru saya nak bgtau.

IMITATING ME!

What did I mean by imitating me?

Semalam, ustaz suruh hafal surah Al-Imran ayat 26, 27. Saya gila-2 lupa pasal tu. So, saya rush lah hafal. Hafal, hafal, then, saya tengok Syahirah pergi baca kat ustaz. Lagi rasa nak rush. Lepas tu pulak, nampak Shimi dah habis baca kat ustaz. Lagilah rasa nak rush tu membuak-buak. Syahirah tak habis baca lagi dengan ustaz. Saya hafal ayat 27 tu, then, nampak Faresha tengah baca kat ustaz. Terus saya gi tunggu kat barisan menunggu.

Bila masa ada barisan menunggu?

Tak sampai 10 saat diri, saya terus pergi belakang, cakap dengan Faten. Tengah cakap, saya nampak Syahirah nak jalan pergi kat ustaz. Mana boleh, tempat saya tu! Tapi tak reserved lagi. HAHA XD. So, saya cepat-2 lari pergi depan. Syahirah nampak and dia senyum. HAHA XD.

Saya baca dulu kat ustaz. Saya dapat band 5. Ustaz cakap, boleh baca lagi untuk dpt band 6. Saya nak sangat band 6! So, saya pergi duduk kat tempat saya, lancarkan hafalan dan betulkan tajwid. Saya cabut spect sebab rasa serabut.

Bila bab menghafal, saya cepat serabut. Therefore, saya akan bergerak sambil hafal.

Bila serabut, cabut spect, pergi belakang and hafal. Mula-2, saya jalan back and forth kat belakang tu, hafal. Then, Aishah and Faten sekali hafal sambil jalan-2 kat belakang. So, saya pergi jalan sekeliling kelas sambil hafal. Ayat 27 tak ada masalah but ayat 26, saya asyik-2 lupa perkatan tukti. HAHA XD. So, kene baca balik. Saya sampai ketuk-2 jari saya kat tangan sambil hafal. Saya pusing gila banyak kali.

Tengah hafal sambil pusing-2 tu, saya dengar budak laki cakap pasal bende ntah masa saya jalan tepi diaorg. Saya tengah ketuk-2 jari saya kat palm saya sambil hafal. Then, Aidil tiru, rasanya. Saya buat bodo aje. Then, saya kept on buat bende alah tu. Takde masa saya nak kisah pasal diaorang. Masa saya otw ke belakang, saya jalan and then, bila dah sampai belakang, saya lompat and pusing ke depan. Then, saya ternampak Aidil tiru sebiji-sebiji everything yang saya buat! Budak-2 lelaki lain ketawa.

Saya cupped my face and duduk yang tak berapa nak duduk kat lantai tu. Saya try stop kejap, mana tahu saya boleh cepat hafal bila buat gitu. But nah, tak berapa nak lancar. Saya tak suka. Tajwid kene betul! Saya pandang je depan, nampak Aidil and there he was, imitating me.

Annoyed, saya bangun and jalan sekeliling kelas balik. Saya try banyak kali. Saya pusing banyak kali. Selagi tak lancar, saya tak akan duduk kat tempat saya. Saya tak endahkan budak-2 lelaki tu. Diaorang buat apa pun saya tak tahu, Yang saya tahu, masa saya jalan, Nisa cakap, diaorang meniru saya. Saya stop, pandang diaorang, nampak Aidil buat bende ntah. Saya tak pakai spect, tak jelas sangat. Tapi nampaklah yang dia kinda macam imitate bende yang saya buat tadi.

Habis Agama, still tak baca kat ustaz. Masa rehat saya gi, but ustaz tak ada dekat bilik guru. Lepas rehat, BI. Kita belajar short story One is One and All Alone written by Nicholas Fisk. Ke tak? Saya tulis aje. HAHA XD. Trish has a clone, then, teacher cakap something pasal imitate. Saya pandang Aidil. Teacher cakap...

"If someone imitates you, you can slap him or her"

Or something like that lah. Then, teacher cakap lagi...

"But then, him or her will slap you back"

Aihh, spoil mood aje. HAHA XD. To be honest, saya tak pernah aware or macam takut kat guys yang sama umur dengan saya. But Aidil ni lain. Dia creepy gila. Saya tak tahu kenapa but dia orang first yang buat saya macam aware nak buat something kat dia. Tapi saya tak buat apa pun.

Saya baik :D

Then, tadi, masa kat sekolah, before sesi penggambaran, kita pergi bengkel. But then, sapa ntah cakap, pergi masuk kelas. So, kita otw masuk kelas. Kat tangga, nampak people kerumun cikgu Tarmizi. Dia pakai baju hitam! Saya pergi tengok. Then, diaorang ckp, cg Tarmizi ganti cg diaorang yang KT. So, PK kene gi bengkel. Bila kita pusing nak gi bengkel, Izz cakap, masuk kelas. So, kita naik kelas. Susun kedudukan and such lah.

Before turun, masa first tu, kita dah susun kedudukan dah. Saya dah ukur ketinggian dalam kelas. Saya antara 6 orang perempuan yang paling pendek dalam kelas. Sedihnya! Kenapa? Saya akan minum protein banyak-2! Saya punya kedudukan sebelah Aifaa and Hanis. Oh my adik! Depan saya, Izzati and Amira. HAHA XD. Serious cakap, freestyle "ONE SHOT" kitaorang memang buruk. Or saya je yang fikir gitu?

Masa dia cakap freestyle, saya dah fikir nak buat One Shot and then, tiba-2, Auni cakap, "One Shot" so, saya and Aifaa buat style One Shot. Izzati pun buat, rasanya. Kakak buat style One Shot bila kali kedua tu. Saya rasa muka saya buruk gila-2 nak mampus. Oh my...

Then, PK turun, pergi bengkel but then, cg cakap, tinggal 10 minit aje lagi. So, cikgu suruh naik kelas Saya nampak Danish, anak cikgu Hidayati. Cutenya! Saya hesitated nak pergi dekat dengan Danish. So, saya senyum je. Dia tengok saya dengan mata besar dia tu. Cutenya! Lepas beberapa saat, saya pergi dekat Danish and pegang pipi dia. Then, semua kerumun dia. Saya kat tepi dia tapi jauh sikit. Aina, Auni and Aifaa kat belakang cikgu. Dia tengok je kita masa mula-2 tu. Cikgu cakap, pergilah masuk kelas. Kita tak nak. Nak main dengan dia lama-2. Masa tu, dia tengah makan. Lepas tu, dia lambai kat kita banyak kali. Dia excited lepas lama-2 tu! Dia macam malu-2 itu.

Danish banyak lambai kat saya. Then, dia pusing malu-2. Saya squealed. Dia sangat cute! Izz cakap, dia lambai sebab dia nak suruh saya pergi. HAHA XD. Tak mungkin! Saya tak akan pergi. LOLOLOL. Aifaa lambai kat dia. Dia pun lambai kat adik saya. Tahulah adik saya tu cute ^_^ Turun-temurun daripada saya. HAHA XD. Oh yeah, baby.

Cikgu banyak kali suruh kita masuk kelas. Halau nampak. Hehehe...

Then, Shimi and Fikri masuk bilik guru, buat apa ntah. Aina cakap, tu Kakak Mimi. Tiba-2, Danish jadi macam marah. Takut Amira ke sapa ntah yang tengok muka dia. So cute! Lepas tu, dia okay dah. Dia senyum. Nampak sangat dia tak suka kehadiran Kakak Mimi tu. HAHA XD. But Shimi tak keluar lagi dari bilik guru tu.

Lepas lama tu, cikgu basuh tangan and mulut dia. Then, dia cakap, "Bye Bye" sambil lambai. Eh, budak ni, jangan cakap gitu! Kakak tak nak pergi! Tak nak! Tak nak! Cikgu pegang dia. Semua dah nak blah. Diaorang semua dah diri elok-2 and otw nak keluar. Aina pergi kat Danish, pegang Danish, nak salam. But then, Danish macam tarik tangan dia. Saya pun gi kat Danish, saya pegang tangan dia. Saya tengok, cikgu tak pandang sini. Dia cakap dengan Fikri, kalau tak silap saya. Saya pun, apa lagi?

Green light, line clear, ready, set, go!

I KISSED HIS CHEEK!

Then, Aina jealous gila! Dia pukul saya banyak kali! Tahu lah jealous! HAHA XD. Saya sangat happy! Gla-2 happy masa tu! Saya tak tahu whether Shimi and Fikri nampak saya kissed Danish, but saya tak kisah. Saya sangat happy masa tu! Macam orang gila saya ingat kat Danish! Kat naik tangga, kakak Amira cakap, tukar lagu "I Got A Boy" jadi "I Kissed A Boy". So, saya nyanyi gitu. Hehehe...

Dalam kelas, Aina tulis...

AIDA KISSED A BOY!

Saya tengah letak buku dalam meja, malas nak padam bende alah tu. Then, kakak tulis something kat whiteboard and then, dia padam. Saya cakap kat kakak, tlg padam bende alah tu. Then, kita undi, majoriti tak nak padam. Then, Aina cakap, tulis dia kelas form 2! Then, Aina tulis, dia kelas 2 apa ntah. HAHA XD. Saya tak sure whether batch 99' SMART ada tak nama tu. Rasa macam takde. Saya tak kenal sangat yang lelaki. Tapi rasa macam takde. Ke ada? Rasa takde.

Saya state, dia bakal suami saya. Ohohoho. Diaorang cakap, saya terlalu tua untuk Danish. Eleh, beza 13 tahun aje! Takde lah tua sangat. But... Tua lah jugak sebenarnya. HAHA XD.

Tiba-2, cikgu Nida masuk kelas and dia nampak bnde alah kat whiteboard tu. Aina pun cakap bende sama. Saya cepat-2 gi padam bende alah tu. Then, cikgu cakap, "tak lah. Mesti awak cium ayah awak sebelum pergi sekolah, kan?" Saya angguk. "Betul tu!" Then, Aina cakap, "baru je cikgu! Kita nampak!" Auni angguk. HAHA XD.

Then, saya explain kat cikgu, tu anak cg Hidayati, baru 1 tahun! Takpelah kalau saya nak kiss dia ke apa. Tau lah semua jealous dengan saya sebab tak dapat kiss Danish! HAHA XD.

Masa lepas rehat, Adlin cakap, dia ah tahu saya kissed a boy. HAHA XD. Nasib baik dia aje yang tahu. Belum satu kelas tahu lagi. Steady... My twin pun tak tahu lagi. Hehehe...

Saya nak tulis lirik lagu I KISSED A BOY kejap lagi.

Masa Sejarah, cikgu nak bagi markah. Then, Atiqah ajak saya teman gi mana ntah. Saya pun, ikut je lah. Ingatkan dia nak suruh tolong ambil kertas exam. Tapi kertas exam rasanya ada dekat kita. Then, lepas keluar, saya tanya dia, dia nak pergi mana

Tadi, saya try nak tolong my twin dapat A for Sejarah. Kesian dia. Saya ingat dia biase aje apat B, rupa-rupanyam dia nangis. Saya rasa dia nangis lepas saya tanya. Sebab lepas saya tanya and cakap kat Izzati, Aina gi kat Hamizah. Lepas tu, saya gi kat Hamizah jugak. Muka dia sedih. Dia macam baru lepas nangis. But then, saya gi belakang, sebab saya tak aware pasal tu. Then, Aina bgtau yang dia nangis. Saya kesian kat dia.

Trust me, I know how sad it is to get B, especially when you are just so damn close to get A!

So, saya gi depan, tengok kertas exam dia. Dia cari soalan yang boleh tambahkan dia markah. Aina pun gi depan. Aina suruh saya nyanyi lagu Mary Had A Little Lamb. Saya pun terus nyanyi guna suara husky-crazy saya. Syahirah ketawa masa saya nyanyi. Auni pandang saya semacam. Shimi yang jauh tengok saya macam saya orang gila. Memang nak kene Mimi ni! Then, saya nyanyi lagi lagu ntah apa-2. And Mimi kept on tengok macam saya ni orang gila.

Saya stopped nyanyi and tolong Hamizah cari markah. Saya check satu-2 soalan tu. Memang confirm salah. Then, saya nampak satu target. Soalan 14. Ramai orang salah, except for a few people. Saya cakap dengna Hamizah pasal tu. Auni dengar. Dia sokong. Dia cakap, cemerlang maksud dia lain. Then, saya pergi kat cikgu. Saya tanya pasal soalan 14 tu dulu. Cikgu cakap, batullah jawapan dia B. Then, cikgu cakap, cikgu dapat jawapan dia from buku teks. Dalam buku tulis, dia tulis bijak, bukan cemerlang. Then, cikgu cakap, tengok aras dia. TP. Kene fikir rationally or logically guna akal lah. Cikgu cakap, cemerlang maksud dia sama dengan bijak. Tapi ramai yang cakap lain. Saya sekali lah! Cikgu cakap, cari soalan lain!

Saya cakap, cemerlang ni lain sangat. Saya siap tunjuk kat cikgu maksud cemerlang kat buku teks Sivik tu! Cikgu tak puas hati. Cikgu suruh pergi cari kamus dewan! Saya nak gi cari but before that, saya cari kamus BM-BI. Then, saya ajak Auni pergi cari kamus dewan or tanya cg BM. Kita gi bilik guru, tengok, cg Anuaruddin tak ada kat meja dia. Then, nampak cikgu Mela. Auni tanya, dia cikgu apa? Dia cakap, dia cikgu bahasa. Kita terus tanya, cemerlang dengan bijak maksud dia sama or lain? Cikgu cakap lain. Cikgu buka kamus bende ntah tu. Then, cikgu suruh kita salin maksud tu. 

Ternyata, lain gila maksud dia!

Saya dengan Auni pergi naik kelas, saya terus serbu cikgu. Lain! but then, cikgu cakap, nanti cikgu bincang dengan cikgu Sejarah lain. Saya harap my twin dapat A for Sejarah. Sikit aje lagi! Then, Aina, Syahirah and sapa lagi cakap, jawapan tu mmg B. Aina tak bagi saya cakap sebenarnya. Berapa kali dia cakap ntah. Saya pun lupa. HAHA XD. Dia cakap, kesian kat sapa yang dapat 80% yang buat jawapan B. Masalahnya, saya tak tahu pun Aishah dah dapat 80% masa tu. And saya tak tahu pun dia buat B. Cikgu pun bagi kita fight against jawapan tu. So, bila cikgu dah bagi, kita gunakanlah chance tu. 

Saya believe ada lagi people yang buat C yang dapat 68 or 78 yang lain. Mana tahu... Sebab saya rasa ramai buat C. Kita tengok je lah jawapan tu nanti. Kalau salah, salahlah. Tak dapatlah Hamizah A. And confirm lah Aina dapat no. 1. Tapi at least kita try fight. Saya tak kisah kalau markah saya tambah ke tak. Still gred sama. Masalahnya, Hamizah ni. Antara A or B. Sikit je lagi. Kene fight lah. Rasanya kalau awak dapat 78 pun, awak akan fight. Menipu sgt kalau ckp, awk akan biar je awk dpt 78%. Try to be in her shoes and you'll know how bad it feels to get 78. 

Hmmm... Okay lah. Tu je. Saya rasa dah panjang dah. Assalammualaikum.

Love you guys, bubblebye ^_^

Labels: annoy, answers, exam, fight, friends

Suntikan esok!

Monday, February 13, 2012 | 7:55 PM | 0 comments

Assalammualaikum.


Esok pelajar perempuan SMART kene suntik/cucuk! Aigoo... I'm so freaking nervous right now! That thing is just soo scary! Oh I wish my mom or my dad will be with me tomorrow. -takot, takot- Kalau mama or ayah ade, x de la takot sgt. Ingat lagi mase kecik-kecik, saye selalu kene inject(?)
-ni ke eja perkataan tuh??-

Sekarang nih, dah lama x kene inject so, takot sikit. Eh, eh. Silap. Takot banyak. He3x...


I hope I won't cry tomorrow. Well, I can't stand any pain or else, I'll cry. -Kawan saye ckp, bakal suami saye nanti kene pandai pujuk saye sbb sye always nangis je- Tch. Mane ade saye nangis je. Saye ni bknnye kuat sgt pon nangis. Kadang-2 je.

Ckp psl nangis, teringat plak kat Hasif and Hafiz. Mase tuh, ade jamuan hari raya kat sekolah. Saye bknnye suka sgt pon makan kuih and blah blah nih. So, saye pergi merayau. -bukan merayau sbarnye. Pergi kejar my adik-adik angkat- Kejar, punye kejar, dapatlah tangkap dieorg. Lepas dapat tangkap, saya mintak belon Fahmi. Then, Fahmi pon bagi sebab die tu mmg baik. -saye mintak belon tu sebab belon yg lain dah habis stok. HAHA XD-


Mase kat kelas, saye main-2 la dgn belon tuh. Ye, saye mengaku, saye a bit childish dlm hal-2 yg mcm tuh. Back to my story, Hasif and Hafiztu macam jelez saye ade belon tuh. Hafiz suruh la si pakcik Hasif ni pecahkn belon tu. Pastu, Hasif pergi baling something yg tajam dekat belon tuh and..... Belon tu pecah.

Saye punye lah terkejut! Saye pon ape lagi, pergi la kejar dia walopon tgh pakai kain. Then, lepas dpt die, sye pergi pukul die and tumbuk die. Tumbuk dkt badan je. Dah la mase saye pukul die tuh kite tgh dekat dpn kelas. Semua org tgk! Bila pikir-pikir balik, mmg malu giler! But mse tuh sye tgh bengang sgt ngan Hasif tuh. So, I don't even give a damn la kat org-2 yg tgk 'free' show tuh. Lepas dah puas hati, sye pergi kat tmpt saye balik, menangis. Then, after sye dah calmed myself down, Hafiz siap melutut lagi mintak maaf. Sye senyap je. Mase tu x de mood nk maafkan org. Byk kali jugak la Hafiz mintak maaf.


Well, sejak hari tuh, Hafiz teros jadi baik! Serious, x tipu! But kn, ade bdk-2 laki cerite la psl kejadian tu kat ustazah saye. And her reaction was like: O.o?
-biasalah, orang yg mcm perempuan melayu terakhir dlm kelas nih boleh pukul org lelaki smbil ckp perkataan "bodoh"-

But nasib baik lah ustazah x marah.


 HAHA XD. It's such an embarrassing story, actually.


Okay, okay. Back to the topic, harap-2 bende tu x sakit. Aminn... But kn, my sis ckp, junior-2 die ade yg menangis after kene inject tuh. Kakak saye x nangis sbb die x kena. Mase tahun die dulu x de lagi bende-2 yg macam nih. Then, kakak sye ckp lagi, suntikan ni lebih sakit drpd suntikan ape bende ntah name die - untuk mengelakkan sawan.


So, yeah.. Nak pegi buat hw and doa byk-2. Bye and assalammualaikum. Adios!

Labels: balloon, embarrassed, fight, HPV, school

What kind of brother is that?

Sunday, February 12, 2012 | 4:33 PM | 0 comments

Okay, it's me again. Sorry.. Ingatkn xdi tu my last update 4 this week but x .. haha ..
Ni, saye nk ckp psl my younger brother.

Xdi, saye suruh dia tolong sye sidai baju cuz my mom x de kat rumah -dia kat hospital with my other brother-
Then, ade satu cloth tu die x nak angkat drpd washing machine tuh. Saye suruh dia angkat but still, die x nak. Pastu, sye mrh dia. Pastu die ckp, "taik la ko nih"

And.. my reaction mcm nih : O.o?

WTH? Saye mmg pantang klu org ckp saye bende ntah ape-2 nih. Then, saye balas balik, "ko la. Giler"

Pastu, nk x nk, die angkat jugak la bende tuh. Pastu, mase nak sidai kain, die ckp lagi bende-2 yg ntah apa-2.
Eiii .. Kalau nk ikutkn hati, mmg die dah kene penampar dah nih. Mulut x jage langsong! Tapi nasib baik name saye Sabrina. HAHA XD. So, sabar je la. But, ade gak la, sye ckp die x de otak.

Haha. Kdg-2, mulut saye ni pon boleh thn jugak. Mcm semalam tuh, mmg habis semua perkataan keluar sbb bende yg same. Giler punye budak la. Seriously, what kind of brother is that? Cube la try tlg saye sikit. Ni x, pemalas. Main bola je tau. Ye lah, pakcik nk jadi goalkeeper. -bluewwkkkkkk-

Aisyy.. nasib, nasib dpt adik yg mcm tu. -nasib baik die tu bukan kaki yg suka main laptop. Kalau die bce nih, mmg habis lah, perang besar nnty-

Bile tulis psl perang nih, ingat plak last year, mse my birthday. Saye gadoh dgn budak tu pasal tv. Dah la mase tu saye baru balik POLISAS - ade kem motivasi and blah blah. Mmg letih giler la mse tuh. Pastu, mse malam tu, die asyik tgk bola je. Mane org x bosan! BOLA, BOLA, BOLA! Setiap mase die nak ckp psl bola! Tgk pon, tgk bola. Pegi la tgk bola kat tv depan! Mengade.

Back to the story, sye pon ambik remote and tukar channel. Then, adik sye tu mrh la. pastu, die pegi off tv and diri dpn tv tuh. Sye suruh die gi tepi but die x nak. Then, ape lagi... sye pon cubit die. Pastu, die pukul sye. -mmg sakit gak la die pukul. Haha, mengaku-
Lepas tuh, sye pukul lgy sakit drpd die pukul sye smpai die nangis. Then, saye kene mrh ngan my dad. Aigoo...

Tu lah antare birthday saye yg plg x best. Well, sbnarnye, the last 3 years nih mmg ade je yg kena bila birthday saye.

Mase saye darjah 4 - Saye tertidur. Then, my family members pulak yg pegi tiup lilin and makan cake tuh. Alaa, psl makan kek sye x kesah sgt. But psl tiup lilin and potong kek tu je yg penting. X kan la kek saye, org lain plak yg gi tiup lilin n potong kek! Mmg giler sedih la. Sampai mse pagi 15 Mei 2009 tuh saye nangis. Bila gi skolah, kwn sye ckp, mmg nmpk tande-2 sye menangis. Buat malu je..

Then, mse saye darjah 5 - My dad x balik rumah. Saye x ingat sgt mse tuh.. But yg sye ingat, that's my last birthday yg sye sambut dgn my late grandpa. Ahhh... I miss my late grandpa so damn much! -if only I can turn back time. I'll hug him soo many times on that day and I'll take pictures with him-

Mase darjah 6 pulak, yg tu lah - yg gadoh tuh..

So, harap-2, this year punye birthday best! Aminn...... I'll try to make this year punye birthday elok even kalau sye sambot tu without my sister and my grandpa.

Labels: birthday, curse, family, fight