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Sunday, June 1, 2014 | 7:47 PM | 0 Alien

Assalamualaikum.

Today is basically my last day of cuti sobs. Okay, enough with that. homework tak sentuh lagi and the next 2 weeks, I'm gonna be so freaking like so so so so damn busy with kawad so yeah. Pity me.

Since today is the last day, so, I decide not to do any homework (as if I dah buat homework tapi ada niat, cuma takde masa nak sentuh sebab busy dengan Evanescent) and I just look through some old fanfics that I read 4 years ago and such.

I found a fic that made me so freaking crazy, it was called apa eh You're My Husband, Not My Husband. Okay that was so crazy. The writing was so simple, banyak grammatical errors but I just feel so hard for it. Oh, not just me. Izzati pun sama. RLAB.

Then, I saw MCHA:TI and My Boyfriends and I still ingat Our Girlfriend, and all those INFINITE vampires sequel from dbskgirl4ever. You know, they were so great. MASTERPIECES! I still remember how I used to cry my eyes out when I read the part in Our Girlfriend when Jeongmin quarreled with OC and he was like, fine, let us just vanish from this world. You don't want us with you anymore and I was like Jeongmin you nappeun nom why why and I cried and I sobbed. It was a really beautiful memory for me - to stay up late at nights just to wait for dbskgirl4ever to update her fics.

Those infinite sequels were the best. But I didn't read the last sequel since my interest in infinite had gone (but it came back now but lemme just read it some other time eh) As for MCHA and MCHA:TI, ahahahahahahaha the best ever. Okay, maybe not ever. But they're really great. MCHA was the reason why people called me Alien. Seriously, it was so great and I remembered how I cried when Baek saved OC from being killed by Yongguk (eiii yongguk why so bad you're my fav guy sobs) and how I really hated Cyeol cause he liked OC so much but he was so childish and he kept asking her to cook ramen and I was like eiii you ramyeon go away lah aku nak OC dengan Baek (cause apparently I was in love with Baek masa tu) RLAB

Then, my mind was being hit by a masterpiece. BOYPHOBIC. IT WAS SO GREAT I FELT LIKE CRYING cause it was just a masterpiece. But tak tahu lah sekarang since I read it when I was in standard 6 but seriously, it was damn great. It was basically the first fic that consists various idols yang saya baca lah. And I still don't know siapa Jihwan tu and I don't care abt it.

Next stop, its sequel, BOYPHILIC guys! Niel and Kwangmin were just so ahahahahahahahahahahahahahaa. Okay this is the part when Niel akan pergi ke Russia, leaving Kwangmin, his best friend, looking after Niel's girlfriend.

And it led to the love-triangle plot in BOYMANIC. Me myself was so confused as a reader. I sometimes imagined myself as the OC but heol it was so suffocating I couldn't think right. Kwangmin was so sweet and innocent and nice too and Niel was so kind and he was the first guy that helped her since she first stepped into the school and I was like gah can you not, author?!

The great moment was these three stories were made in 2011.

Which made me think, oh, kalau saya, memang tak lah tiga2 ni nak siap dalam 2011. But oh, Boymanic completed on 20th Feb 2012. But I didn't read the ending and I actually stopped reading once I became a form 1 student. I didn't know why, I just felt like it was too much for me to bear everything about the fic. It was so hard for me to take it. It was just so complicated.

And I saw Turning Back Time, where Yesung was the 'angel' yang boleh putarkan balik masa. It was fantastic, but it never finished. Sobs.

What else? Painfully Underage? Lolololoololololollol. No no. A taste of your own medicine. It was so annoying. I felt sick but it was addicting. Myungsoo was so jahat eii I felt like kicking him and when Woohyun saved OC from Myungsoo and how Myungsoo got jealous of her relationship with Woohyun but Myungsoo actually had a mistress OMG THIS IS SO ANNOYING KENAPA AKU PERGI CERITA KAT SINI AKU RASA NAK SEPAK MYUNGSOO SEKARANG GOSH.

But it was a work of art, people. Izzati baca kot cerita ni. HAHA mostly saya share dengan dia some fics yang saya baca masa dulu so mungkin dia baca dan mungkin tak but I remember I ada cerita kat dia pasal ni. Tak tahu dia baca ke tak.

And Dear Wendy, gosh it was a masterpiece. How Kwangmin actually killed his mom and everything gosh but it wasn't finished, never did, and I don't think it would, tbh. What else?

That's PHASE 1.

Fasa kedua, is when everything gets so boring. I just don't know what to read and I start to read horror fics. But only sikit je fics yang best. And saya tak nak mention semua tu lulz.

PHASE 3 now, guys.

Kaisoo phase. Yaoi. *throw up* Anterograde Tomorrow. Master master masterpiece. 10080. Great style of writing. Absolute Chanyeol. Hmmmm. Arbitrage. Brought me to a new world of cars. I was so insane after I read it. It was complicated that any other fics, way way way more complicated. How Kyungsoo crashed his car and turned back time and how Kai crashed his car and forward the time and how the was actually two Kyungsoo, one in the past, on his way to the present, changing his destiny. And another Kyungsoo was in the present, living as an accountant, I guess, ke dia kerja dengan bank. And then how there's actually the Kyungsoo C (Kyungsoo ketiga) I actually dah forgot cerita dia guane but it was so freaking complicated and how actually Chen was also a crasher who could go back to the past and how Kyungsoo crashed his car for the last time since it was so dangerous (he could forget everything after that, including Kai sobs) just to save Kai from the crash. Ah berbelit-belit.

And The Implications of Telepathy ahahahahahahahahaha I was speechless during Kyungsoo's phone conversation with Cyeol. Because it turned out Cyeol wasn't talking, he was just thinking. Gosh. But having the capability to know what's inside people's minds are so not cool after all.

And phase four, I'm still waiting for you.

So, yeah, that's just a lil review for you guys lol more to a flashback to myself and I'm so thankful that I got to read a lot of amazing masterpieces. I love these authors. Hoping to be one, but it's a long way to go. Assalamualaikum.

Love you guys, bubblebye ^_^

Labels: fanfics, random

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Evanescent [Chapter 1]

Saturday, May 31, 2014 | 6:36 PM | 0 Alien

Regrets filled her heart as the wedding bells chimed in happiness, with crowds cheering, filling the wedding hall with excitement.

This is wrong. This is so wrong.

Her husband, Joonmyeon held her hand softly – he must be so relieved that they were now husband and wife. His grip was so soft that it reminded her when she tried to break up with him. Oh, how she wish she could turn back time. She looked up to him, his smile brought her back to sanity.

“Congratulations, dear. I know you would be the perfect girl for him the first time I met you.” Mrs. Kim gave her a bear hug. As they broke away, Yoona’s eyes caught a familiar figure walking towards them, with a bright smile plastered on his face. Her lips curled a small smile, eyes not leaving him as he walked pass her.

“Dude, you’re married! Congrats!” It was music to her ears – heavenly and harmonic. She swore she could sleep soundly tonight with the fact that she had been longing to listen to his voice. But a sudden realization hit her right in her heart and stabbed her hard – She was his sister-in-law right this damn moment.

Myungsoo then turned to her, smile still hadn’t fade away, which literally sent electric down her spine. Butterflies fluttered in her stomach as he congratulated her and shook her hand. She swore she must be out of her current mind because she never wanted to let his hand go. It was their first skinship after a few years and she missed it.

“Take good care of my hyung. He can be a pain in the neck sometimes,” he said, followed with some chuckles from his parents. Joonmyeon smacked his head playfully as he grabbed her on her waist, saying that he wasn’t like that. She watched this family in amusement, but somehow guilt filled her heart.

Feelings, go away.
Stupid, Yoona, stupid, just get this feeling out of your mind already! He doesn’t love you, he never did in the first place!
Just move on.

Joonmyeon woke up peacefully despite the sorry he felt to his beautiful wife for having to postpone their honeymoon. After showering, he took a long glance on the woman beside him, softly carressing her long hair.

“I’m sorry,” he spoke, voice laced with sorry. Drops of water fell on her face, which he quickly wiped them away.

“I promise we’ll go there some other time.” Then, he got up and went to work.

Yoona wasn’t practically asleep during that moment. Her eyes were closed, but she just couldn’t get herself to sleep. She tossed and turned the whole night but she just couldn’t sleep. She seemed stuck between the reality and her Dreamland. Yoona got up a few moments after Myungsoo left, with red puffy eyes. She walked around the room with guilt. Something just couldn’t get out of her mind – Kim Myungsoo.

It was sinful and she could never be forgiven for this sin of loving someone else apart her husband. But somehow she just couldn’t get over the past. The past of two of them, it wasn’t that special. It wasn’t filled with happiness that much, laughter was rare, but at least it was somehow filled with love, the pure love of two innocent teens.

Yoona looked through the clear window, lips curling into a painful smile. Her eyes pierced through the view in front of her as tears slowly welling in her eyes. One by one, tears rolled down her cheeks. She sobbed.

“I’m sorry, Joonmyeon, I’m sorry.”

Myungsoo was already sitting at the dining table, waiting for everyone else for breakfast. His parents and Yoona went to the dining room at the same time.

“Morning,” Myungsoo greeted them as they took their seat on the table. They greeted him back and started to eat their breakfast which was made by him.

The whole atmosphere was awkward.

“Where’s Joonmyeon?” Mrs. Kim broke the silence between them. Yoona looked up, only to have an eye-contact with Myungsoo. She paused.

“Uhhh… He left to work early.” Yoona then stole a very quick glance on the man in front of her.

“So, how are things between you two?” Myungsoo’s eyes lit up as curiosity grew into him. Yoona turned to her mother-in-law, quite unsure of the question.

“Pardon me?”

“You know, do you feel awkward with each other after marriage or do you need some space or have you done… that?” Myungsoo almost choked his food upon hearing that.

“Are you okay, son?” He nodded, quickly finishing his breakfast.

“So, care to tell us about it?” Mrs. Kim continued the conversation but Yoona shook her head.

“It’s not going that well. I don’t know why but we feel awkward with each other,” she said, followed with a soft awkward chuckle from herself.

She looked down on her food, and all she could feel was guilt.

Joonmyeon noticed his wife wasn’t being her real cheerful self these days. Yoona wasn’t as loud as she used to be, she rarely laughed out loud to his jokes like she used to. Something must’ve bothered her that much.

“Darling, is there something wrong?” He sat beside her on the couch. Yoona looked up to him, closing the novel she was reading.

She faked a smile. “Nothing is wrong.” She placed her head on his shoulder, closing her eyes and she sniffed his sweet scent that made her relax.

“Are you sure? You look down these days.”

It seemed like forever for Yoona to answer that she was perfectly fine. She then moved her arms, slowly touching the man’s chest with the tip of her fingertips before wrapping her arms around his waist. “Maybe I’m just bored till death here,” she joked. “You should come home early and spend time with me.”

Joonmyeon pursued his lips tight. He knew he hadn’t been a good husband to her since their marriage - he was too busy with his work. “I’m sorry.”

To Joonmyeon, there wasn’t so much he could do than apologize. He couldn’t promise to come home early because he knew he wouldn’t uphold that promise for a long time. So, it was better to have no promises than to break promises.

“It’s okay. You don’t have to be sorry.”

Myungsoo sometimes thought of moving somewhere else, somewhere he could get away from Yoona. She was a stranger, and she would always be a stranger to him. He didn’t even know her anymore, not after she suddenly left without a notice three years ago. Everything about her changed – the way she looks at him, the way she smiles at him, and the way she talks to him. Everything just drastically changed and he hated her for that. He just wanted to know why, and the reason behind her changes. Those questions kept on lingering in his mind and they didn’t seem to stop bothering him no matter how much he tried.

But he was still the same Kim Myungsoo Yoona had always known – shy and quiet. He wouldn’t ask her those questions, no matter what. But the fact that he was demure sometimes led him to a point of insanity.

But he never wanted to change because it was the real him in the very beginning, it was the person that made Yoona fall for him.

Some nights, Yoona found herself alone with Myungsoo at the dining room, just the both of them. Sometimes she found herself looking at him unwarily through the window. Rarely did she find herself talking to him. It was awkward, it was estranged.

It was one of those awkward moments when Yoona tried to make a friendly conversation of a brother-and-sister-in-law.

“Do you always go home early, Myungsoo?” The man glued his eyes to the laptop in front of him, but some things were running in his mind. Myungsoo, he missed that word coming out from her mouth. It was magical; it was a cure to his longing pain.

“Yeah” was the only answer she got. Her heart felt pain as she plastered a fake smile on her face. And that was it – the end of their conversation. The room was filled with silence once again. Yoona tapped her fingers on the table as she looked at Myungsoo who was so immersed into his work. Joonmyeon still hadn’t come home yet while her parents-in-law had already slept. Yoona sighed in boredom but suddenly her lips curled into a small smile.

Her mind played the moments when she used to stare at Myungsoo doing his homework years ago, how hardworking he had always been, and how he used to pout when he didn’t know the answer to the question. Back then, Yoona wasn’t that good in studies but she still remembered how she studied Maths really hard just to attract Myungsoo’s attention. He was good in everything, except Maths. Being the top student in her class for Maths, she got the chance to tutor him Maths but it didn’t go well as she planned. He was as quiet as ever and he didn’t really ask her questions.

“You’re still quiet as you used to be, huh?” Yoona broke the silence, eyes glued to him. He turned to her and their eyes met.

“Yeah, I still am,” Myungsoo answered as soon as he broke the eye-contact.

“Do you still hate me?”

“Why should I?”

“I was your creepy stalker, remember? You had always hated me. And now, the fact that I’m your sister-in-law makes—“

“I never hate you.” Myungsoo interrupted. “Never did in the first place.”

Yoona clicked her tongue and heaved a deep breath. Her eyes were welled with tears as she blinked many times than usual. She turned her head, not allowing him to see her tears that slowly rolled down her cheeks one by one.

Yoona stood up, fingers wiping away those tears on her cheeks. “I’m sleepy. Good night.”

It was too much for Yoona to bear it.

Labels: Evanescent, fanfics, L, Yoona

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Evanescent [Synopsys]

| 6:28 PM | 0 Alien

Title: Evanescent
Starring: Im Yoona, Kim Myungsoo, Kim Joonmyeon
Genre: Romance, Angst

Yoona thought marriage would end everything but she was wrong.

Past hugs the one who tries to break away and runs from someone who begs for it.

A marriage that was supposed to fill with happiness didn't turn out really well, just because of a past that haunted them back after a few years. Past - it should never exist, especially when they just got married.

"There was once a fleeting moment with just you and I."

Both of them tried to save the marriage but trying wasn't enough when their actions told the opposite - actions speak louder than words.

"Your love to me is evanescent."

Labels: Evanescent, fanfics, L, Suho, Yoona

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Valentine's Day

Tuesday, February 14, 2012 | 8:42 PM | 0 Alien

14/02/12 - Korang tau tak hari ni hari apa? Confem tau kan? Alah, dekat FB ramai dah orang tulis pasal Valentine's Day sampai orang yang x sambut dan x pernah kisah pasal Valentine macam saye ni pon tau. HAHA XD. Memang lah x pernah kisah pasal Valentine sebab saya mana pernah ade boyfriend. X pernah couple pon. -bukannye nak couple pon. x teringin langsong-

Saya tengok kan, semalam, ramai la jugak status orang yg tulis something like this : Saya Islam, maaf, saya x sambut Valentine.

Okay. Saya suka kalau orang tulis macam tuh. Korang x sambut Valentine but korang couple x eh? Saye x pernah lagi jumpa orang tulis something like this : Saya Islam, maaf, saya x couple.

Saya pon x pernah buat status macam tu. But saye just bagitau dekat orang-2 yg ajak saye couple tuh - Sorry lah. Couple tu haram.

HAHA XD. Lepas tuh, mmg dieorg x pernah dah ajak couple except for a guy sorg nih. Memang x reti-2 nak putus asa. Orang dah cakap couple tu haram, haramlah. Ni x, dah tau benda tu haram, nak gi ajak saye couple lagi. Isyy3x... Remaja-2 zaman sekarang. XP

Saya rasakan, last year ramai jugak kott orang Islam yang sambut Valentine. Saye ni mmg confem la x sambut.

Dalam fanfics, ade banyak yg tulis pasal Valentine's Day. Boleh dikatakan 3/4 daripada fanfics yg saye bace tuh ade part-2 pasal Valentine! Buat chocolate lah, lelaki pujaan dia tu dumped dia on Valentine's Day lah and banyak lagi lah. Mmg byk sgt cerite yg macam gitu. Sampai nak muak dah baca. Sikit-sikit, Valentine's Day and chocolate and love letter. Memang not my soul la cerite-2 yg macam tuh except la kalau cerite tu best sgt. -Eh, jap, jap. Cerite My Boyfriends and Our Girlfriend tu ade part Valentine x?-

Lagi 3 bulan, birthday saye. Yippeee ~ But lame lagi lah. Tgh pikir nak mintak ape dekat bff sye tuh? Die dah tanye dah xdi but... X kan lah nak ckp mse tu kan? Nak mintak bear, saye dah ade dah bear.. Besar punye ~ HAHA XD. That bear is even bigger and taller than my younger brother.

Nak mintak ape lagiiii??? Oh yeah! I dah tau dah! XD

Okay lah. Assalammualaikum and bye-2. Annyeong and adios! Nak pegi siapkn hw and buat ape-2 yg ptot.

Labels: birthday, couple, fanfics, Islam, Valentine

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Pengakuan :D

Sunday, February 12, 2012 | 3:40 PM | 0 Alien

Assalammualaikum.

Ni, saye nak buat pengakuan.
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Saye lebih elok tulis fanfics drpd berblogging nih.

So, from now on, saye nk lebih focus on my on-going fanfics drpd blog nih.
-Kene syg fanfics dlu, baru syg blog-

So, ni, sye nk bg korg satu link fanfics yg plg saye suke . Click nih.

Title: Our Girlfriend (Sequel to My Boyfriends)
Author: Dbskgirl4ever (my favorite author in aff)

Fanfic ni mmg best! Saye sampai menangis giler-2 punye. Haha XD. Tapi syg, ff ni x se'famous' fanfic My Boyfriends.

Honestly, saye lgy suka yg My Girlfriend punye sbb yg nih lebih menarik jalan cerita dia.
Part yg plg saye suke - mase semua ex boyfriends perempuan tu avoid her. Mmg giler best la pt tuh!
Also, mase chapter nih. Mase ni pon saye nangis gakk.

Fanfic dbskgirl4ever je yg boleh buat sye menangis sll. But skrang nih, since die x tulis ff psl boyfriend sgt dah, sye x bce la ff dia. Skrang nih, I'm still looking for some great fanfics to read - yg boleh buat saye nangis. -Kalau x nangis, cpt boring lahh-

Kalau korg ade mase, boleh x tlg bace my fanfics? He3x... -promote ff kejap-

1) Can't You See?

2) You're cold, I like!

Sbnarnye ade lagi ff sye yg tgh on-going but yg lain tu x best. Yg You're Cold, I like! tuh, sye jrg update sbb busy sgt. Can't You See? tu pon same gakk. But, a few days ago, rsenye, sye ade update CYS tuh. Oh oh, lupa! Ade lagi satu fanfic nih :

3) My Complicated Love Story (MCLS)

Yg MCLS nih, saye buat ngan kwn saye. Cbe la try bace yg nih. InsyaAllah ok. :D

So, annyeong, bye and assalammualaikum! Adios!

-my last post for this week-

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Bubblehye

Assalamualaikum! Greetings, aliens from Saturn! You've stepped into BDA's world. Accept me for who I am or just get out of here. I don't bite.
Blue Diamond Angel

Reminiscing those moments when we were all together as one big family