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Labels: love rants

PAST ♥ FUTURE

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Mine ;
Name : A!da $abr!na
Nicknames : A!da/$abr!na/Angel/BDA/Blue Diamond Angel/Alien/Dodo/Clown/Aidada/Chanyeol's Wifey
Korean name : Park Angelina
Birthday : 14th May 1999
State : EXO Planet, Earth, Saturn
Status : Officially taken by Chanyeol

Likes ;
☆ Kpop
☆ Chanyeol
☆ Blogging
☆ McFlurry Oreo
☆ Geronimo Stilton
☆ Fanfics
☆ Rapping

Hates ;
☆ Anons
☆ Copypasters
☆ Kpop haters
☆ Haters
☆ Annoying person
☆ Liars

Facts ;
◕‿◕ Currently studying in SMART
◕‿◕ I express my feelings through fictions
◕‿◕ Sometimes I think I'm good in writing and sometimes I think I'm not
◕‿◕ Deep inside me, I want to write an English novel on my own
◕‿◕ Creating posters is one of my hobbies actually
◕‿◕ Love to read English novels but never really finish reading every word in them
◕‿◕ I can get so touched when I read sad fictions
◕‿◕ I love to collect quotes from fictions
◕‿◕ I only read angst fictions- kinda
◕‿◕ Wish I can be fluent in Arabic, English, Korean, Japanese, Mandarin and Urdu ASAP
◕‿◕ I don't really like to do the same thing over and over again. Get sick of it seriously
◕‿◕ I have flaws but I'm thankful for that
◕‿◕ I want someone who doesn't care about me embarrassing myself. Example: If I accidentally make fun of myself, then he would laugh and then he would say things like "haha you're so embarrassing but who cares? My love for you won't ever change." Cheesy enough heh?
◕‿◕ And I want that someone to love me for being random. Example: When I write about random things out of the topic we're talking about, he would be saying things like, oh you're so random, why do I like you in the first place and such. Too cheesy I kennot
◕‿◕ Sometimes I talk too much
◕‿◕ I am so not romantic but I love romantic things but I'm so geli with all those romance thingy

"Capture well the moment because it is evanescent."

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Sya-Syahirah | Ana Marlina | Ana Min-Ji | My Lost Star | You're Cold, I like! | Loving You Secretly | Can't You See? | Blue Diamond Angel | Chanyeol's Wifey | ASK BDA

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Stories of De Angel

I express my feelings by writing stories.

Synopsis !

Prologue !

Chapter 1 !

Chapter 2 !

Coming soon !

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My Asianfanfics Fictions

My Lost Star !

Can't You See? !

Coming soon !

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My Crazy Hot Aliens II: The Invasion !

My Arranged Marriage with EXO-K's Sehun !

A Taste Of Your Own Medicine !

Murder In The Dark !

Yellow Dahlias !

Love Letters !

Coming Soon !

Sarang Rants

Monday, June 9, 2025 | 10:28 PM | 0 comments

Here we go again. 

About the same old topic. 

LOVE. 

They say you'll find love sooner or later. 

I'm 26 now. 

My 14-year-old-naive-self thought I'd get married at 24.

I didn't. 

My 24-year-old self thought I'd get married at 26.

I didn't. 

To make things worse, I'm still very single. Not taken. Not in love with anyone. Never been in a relationship before.

Is this a curse?

Or is it the payback I get for rejecting all those guys in my life?

But in my defense, I rejected those guys because I never wanted to waste my time on them and vice versa. I ran away at the first sight of red flag or impossibility, and I made my future self justice.

But in return, maybe I have to suffer being in solitude for the rest of my life.

Will I regret it tho?

I don't know.

Maybe I will.

Maybe I won't, because being single is way better than ending up with the wrong person.

Honestly, at this rate, I'd just marry my guy friend (idk who tho) (I dont even have a guy friend tbh lol)

Because at the end of the day, I realize that I'd opt for familiarity and comfort. I wish to have a person I can talk to. Someone I can be comfortable with and be in my own skin. No pretense, no second thoughts. Just pure me and myself. Never having to think whether they'll like me enough or if I'm good enough for them.

That's exactly what friends are.

And that's exactly what I'm looking for in a guy.

But ofc, I need to be friends with guys first. 

I mean, I do have a few guys friends (colleagues). Lemme just stop there.

Because I don't think I'll even end up with them ha ha I don't think they'll want to even end up with me lol

Okay, honestly, at this rate, I think I'll end up single for the rest of my life.

I don't know if I'll even meet anyone, and that's honestly sad, even if I try my best to convince myself that it's okay.

And I know for sure that I'll feel even worse once Qistina, Inas, Izzati, and Atiqah are married.

And I'll feel reaaaaaally lonely once Atifah finds her person.

But maybe, just maybe, I'm really not meant to find love here :(

If God has written that for me, it's okay, I guess.

I have no complaints :')

Labels: love rants