Thursday, September 4, 2014 | 8:50 PM | 0 Alien
Assalamualaikum.
Totally true.
My heart was trembling so bad today and somehow I felt thankful for that. I've been longing to feel the butterflies ever since a few months ago. I missed those sick feelings, seriously.
My heart rarely beats faster than usual. Sometimes it beats faster when I think of Owl, not when I look at Owl so it makes me wonder if I really like Owl cause heol, I don't really feel anything when I see Owl most of the time. But you know what, my heart does beat faster when I'm around him on rare occasions. But it's just so rare that I can actually count them with my fingers.
I was out of my mind. I shouldnt be so nervous around him. I could barely breathe properly when I saw him. And his voice when he asked me and that stupid trembling voice when I answered his question. Gosh. I shouldnt act that way. And when our eyes met and I just decided to look at him when he was doing something else. Everything was just so mesmerizing. Somehow it surprised me that I was trembling so bad, that I wasnt even myself when he was around. Oh and that skinship...
Mungkin bagus juga saya tak suka Gentle dah. He's so koya berwawasan. Okay, I dont like the word koya but takde word lagi yang boleh describekan kekoyaan dia. Tadi saya tanya dia pasal smth and then dia jawab and somehow deep inside my heart, I felt gila relieved yang I tak suka dia dah.
And OMG thanks to Asy I love you so much muah muah muah :* Ive got the chance to look at Owl easily (kinda) masa lunch. He was so so so freaking cute I just kennot. Tapi saya makan lagi laju daripada dia heh. Masa makan, saya orang paling last makan. Aina, Faten semua tu suruh saya makan cepat sebab kalau tak diaorang nak tinggalkan saya sorang2 tapi masalahnya diaorang lawak sangat so saya tak boleh makan elok-elok. They were all standing dekat depan meja tu and be like Aida you better eat cepat! And Kiyah was like, Aida, beruntung kau ada bodyguards jaga and I was like, nama Aida, ofc lah beruntung. They were so bising masa nak suruh saya habiskan makanan saya. Asy dengan Aishah pula kata, Owl tengok saya 2 kali masa tu. But I was too focused nak habiskan makanan lepas tu saya bangun nak letak pinggan dalam besen tapi diaorang suruh duduk balik, habiskan ayam. I was like wth people and they were like, tak baik membazir, membazir itu amalan syaitan. Then saya makan sikit ayam lepas tu bangun nak letak pinggan lepas tu diaorang suruh duduk balik and I did. Aina kata, you are basically embarrassing yourself rn. And I was like, korang lah yang suruh saya habiskan makanan. Lepas tu saya bangun lepas tu kena duduk balik. 4 kali tahu!
Habis makanan, air pula. Masa nak duduk, Aina kata, sini saya tolong awak tarikkan kerusi. Ni nak tarik kerusi pun lambat. Lepas tu saya nak duduk, dia sengaja je nak biar saya jatuh and I was like eii Aina nasib baik saya tak duduk lagi and then saya duduk kat kerusi lain and minum and diaorang kata takkan minum pun lambat juga. Lepas tu last gulp, Aina macam tolak gelas tu and I was basically macam asdfghjkl nasib baik tak tersembur air ni. Then Asy ada kata Owl tengok saya lagi and I was like kan bagus kalau saya boleh tengok dia masa tu.
Masa Science, gila mengantuk. Barisan saya, Aina, Syahirah and Faten straight letak kepala atas meja. Aina dengan Faten dah sah2 tidur. I wasnt tidur masa tu, it's just that saya sangat mengantuk. Mony and Syafiqah pun sama letak kepala atas meja. Dalam group kita tu, hanya Sab and Aifaa yang tak letak kepala atas meja. But masa mula2 tu, Aina kata kat Mony Aina mengantuk and Mony kata, dia sorang je yang mengantuk dalam kelas kita ni but then Aina tanya saya and saya kata saya mengantuk, tanya Syafiqah, dia mengantuk juga, tanya Syahirah, Sab, diaorang ofc mengantuk and tanya Faten and Aifaa dah sah2 diaorang mengantuk so the conclusion is, Mony je yang energetic nak belajar Science petang2. Science saya boleh belajar pagi, tapi petang ni macam mengantuk lah. Kena ada smth to chew macam gula2 ke chewing gum ke, baru tak mengantuk.
Owl ni sama macam my dad, warna kulit, rambut, perangai, but it's just that dia lebih baik daripada my dad so I'm wondering if he's the one. Lulz. Cheesynya ayat aku. Hahahaa. Kiyah punya tempias lah ni nak buat ayat dramatic2 ni.
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5/9/14
Ive got the chance to check kuku Owl and I was like hoemgee gila. Mula2, kan saya berdiri tepi kak Hazirah lepas tu saya macam pergi dekat Isha and cakap smth and then pusing, nampak Owl dekat belakang orang yang kena check kuku dengan kak Hazirah. Dia jalan ke tepi lepas tu saya macam omg this is so unbelievable and saya kata, tolong tunjuk kuku, sambil buat gesture tangan macam biasa tu lepas tu dia tunjuk both kuku dia sambil jalan ke depan sikit and stop. Lepas tu saya kata okay tapi macam saya kata tu perlahan and dia tak perasan lepas tu saya tengok aje jari dia and I was like, Ya Allah, cantiknya jari dia. Putih, panjang. Then, dalam 1 sec, mungkin 2 secs, saya pandang muka dia and was like, okay and dia pergi and my heart was beating so fast and I was smiling from ear-to-ear sebab happy sangat. But I wish I can hear his voice. Hmmm... I miss his voice like so freaking much.
Naik kelas, saya tengok dia daripada atas dengan Aifaa. Saya macam tengah focus tengok dia lepas tu tetiba dia pandang atas. I was like wth kenapa kau gi pandang atas sebab seriously, tu kan tingkat 3, tak perlu lah nak pandang atas. Tak perlu nak check saya tengok dia ke apa. Then, Aifaa macam freaked out, saya pun sama juga, sikit. Tapi saya tengok dia lagi and tak sampai a min lepas tu, dia pandang atas lagi. Lepas tu, Aifaa terus tarik saya masuk dalam kelas and cakap, dah tak payah tengok, malu lah. And then saya kata, alah dia dah tahu pun saya suka dia, so nak tengok juga. Tapi serious dia sangat gorgeous. Yes, gorgeous.
Saya cerita kat Aina lepas tu pasal Owl and then Aina kata apa ntah and then dia kata pasal "cg zakaria". Dia tanya, saya berhubung lagi tak dengan dia and I was like, memang tak lah nak berhubung dengan dia kan. Lepas tu saya kata, saya selalu memalukan diri saya bila saya berhubung dengan dia so no. Tak nak. And then Aina ketawa. Dia pernah kata 2 kali kat saya yang saya ni suka memalukan diri sendiri. 1st masa nak tengok orang yang berdiri atas atap dewan al-Falah tu and 2nd masa semalam (4/9) yg saya kena duduk balik 4 kali sebab dipaksa untuk habiskan makanan saya.
Saya tanya Aina, Owl ke "cg zakaria" lepas tu Aina kata, Owl tu comel. Tak matured, macam saya. "cg zakaria" pula matured. So, kalau Aina jadi saya, dia akan pilih "cg zakaria" and I was like haa kan I kena dengan orang yg matured cause Im kinda immature tapi saya ni matured juga lah, takde lah teruk mana. Naik lif, tekan sendiri. Tapi ntah lah, saya kena lebih matured and stop embarrassing myself in front of people.
Tapi Mijah kata, kalau saya dgn Owl, it'd be so sweet sebab both of us suka skinships. Saya kan macam selalu sangat buat skinships, esp dengan Mijah, Faten, Aina, Aifaa. Yang paling banyak mungkin Mijah sebab kalau saya pergi kat dia je, mesti saya buat backhug kat dia. RLAB. Owl pula, asyik2 skinship dengan ACZ. Benci pula rasa. Jealous. ACZ pun selalu macam buat skinship dulu dengan Owl and I watched them from afar and I was like eiiiiiii apa ni tapi sweetnya owl but still... ish.
Alright jagis, assalamualaikum.
Love you guys, bubblebye ^_^
Angel of Blue Diamond Saturn!
