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Tuesday, January 28, 2014 | 9:14 PM | 0 Alien
Assalamualaikum.
He's gonna leave me. That's it. It's just weird... I don't know. I don't wanna let him go but heol I have to.
It was 1st of January since I first met him. He was like the rainbow I saw earlier that morning, beautiful, brought me happiness for the time being but then, it was gone, eventually gone.
I didn't know how could my eyes catch his figure, it happened so fast that the first thing I knew when I first set my eyes on him - he's my next target. I mean seriously, not THAT type of target, but in the positive way, of course.
And my eyes kept looking at him, I just didn't know why and to me, it was great, I mean, seriously, I got a new crush right on the first day of January and I was really looking forward to it. It was, basically, a new experience to me. He was the first person I liked right on the first sight. Some of crushes, I liked them when I saw them like twice, maybe thrice or maybe more but him... He was special, kinda.
Friday, January 10th, it was our first 'encounter'. It was raining heavily, and I had a meeting in the evening so I stayed back. I didn't really know why did I go to the gate with Fatin, but my heart told me to follow her. Funny, the next thing I knew, I was already beside him, standing there like a statue. I didn't know what was wrong with him but he kept moving here and there and I just wanted to kick him and say, "can you please stand straight?!" because his bag, I thought, maybe not, kept hitting me like seriously it needed a kick.
Skip skip, that night, was an embarrassing one. I was humiliated (ohmychoiceofword) and seriously, I couldn't think straight. He was basically a psycho, a REAL psycho. And he could be a detective. I was so miserable by his questions, so weird, but so real. I sat there, in front of my laptop, being like, wth is he asking me why does he ask me that question god please and blah blah.
Those moments only lasted for 2 weeks, before he crashed my happiness. It was his last day and I knew nothing about it. Nothing. I only knew about it, a few freaking hours after school. And he didn't even bother to tell me about it. He should've told me that thingy in the first place, so that I knew, so that I could prepare myself for the worst.
"Kalau saya pindah MRSM apa yang akak akan buat?"
Goosebumps, he asked me the question a week and two days before he left. And funny, he really did. But why? I brainwashed him, I told him stories, I... I tried to make him stay. I guess he's such a good son. His parents wanted him to go there and he did- almost did, and that's it.
But funny, he tried to troll me that Friday but sorry not sorry, I'm not that stupid and he was like, alah, akak form 3, memanglah. It wasn't because I'm form 3 or smth, it was just because I've been through those thingy so many times I wanna throw up. People trolling here and there, and being the straight, naive girl I was, I kept believing those trolls and gosh haha.
I can't take it anymore. I'm just tired. I'm tired of letting people go out of my life. 3 times, I've had enough. Starting from Fairy, and then, Mystery H and now, Pie? How funny.
I just want him to stay, just stay, so that I can watch him from afar and guess what? It hasn't been a month but yet he's leaving.
Those 2 weeks, those memories we had, those weird questions, I'll miss all of them. You might change, I might change, we'll grow apart- really really really really really really really really apart and we might even forget every single thing that we told each other and you know, only time has the key, only time remembers, it'll never forget.
He already knew everything about my feelings towards him, not that I confessed to him, someone told him omg my heart and I would say yes, it was really awkward at first, it was really embarrassing at first (it still does) but I got used to it.
I longed to see him, but now I won't, I guess, now, I'm strangled in hopes, of him staying. I just want him to stay. I regret what I told him the other day. Shouldn't have typed those words. Because it'll never be okay. I'll never be okay. I typed those words as if everything would be fine and maybe he thought I would be just fine but no, bud, no.
Last wish, I hope he'll come back soon or maybe he won't ever change or something. That's all. I gotta do my homework. Gosh, too much wasting my time here *sobs* so, assalamualaikum.
Love you guys, bubblebye ^_^
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He's gonna leave me. That's it. It's just weird... I don't know. I don't wanna let him go but heol I have to.
It was 1st of January since I first met him. He was like the rainbow I saw earlier that morning, beautiful, brought me happiness for the time being but then, it was gone, eventually gone.
I didn't know how could my eyes catch his figure, it happened so fast that the first thing I knew when I first set my eyes on him - he's my next target. I mean seriously, not THAT type of target, but in the positive way, of course.
And my eyes kept looking at him, I just didn't know why and to me, it was great, I mean, seriously, I got a new crush right on the first day of January and I was really looking forward to it. It was, basically, a new experience to me. He was the first person I liked right on the first sight. Some of crushes, I liked them when I saw them like twice, maybe thrice or maybe more but him... He was special, kinda.
Friday, January 10th, it was our first 'encounter'. It was raining heavily, and I had a meeting in the evening so I stayed back. I didn't really know why did I go to the gate with Fatin, but my heart told me to follow her. Funny, the next thing I knew, I was already beside him, standing there like a statue. I didn't know what was wrong with him but he kept moving here and there and I just wanted to kick him and say, "can you please stand straight?!" because his bag, I thought, maybe not, kept hitting me like seriously it needed a kick.
Skip skip, that night, was an embarrassing one. I was humiliated (ohmychoiceofword) and seriously, I couldn't think straight. He was basically a psycho, a REAL psycho. And he could be a detective. I was so miserable by his questions, so weird, but so real. I sat there, in front of my laptop, being like, wth is he asking me why does he ask me that question god please and blah blah.
Those moments only lasted for 2 weeks, before he crashed my happiness. It was his last day and I knew nothing about it. Nothing. I only knew about it, a few freaking hours after school. And he didn't even bother to tell me about it. He should've told me that thingy in the first place, so that I knew, so that I could prepare myself for the worst.
"Kalau saya pindah MRSM apa yang akak akan buat?"
Goosebumps, he asked me the question a week and two days before he left. And funny, he really did. But why? I brainwashed him, I told him stories, I... I tried to make him stay. I guess he's such a good son. His parents wanted him to go there and he did- almost did, and that's it.
But funny, he tried to troll me that Friday but sorry not sorry, I'm not that stupid and he was like, alah, akak form 3, memanglah. It wasn't because I'm form 3 or smth, it was just because I've been through those thingy so many times I wanna throw up. People trolling here and there, and being the straight, naive girl I was, I kept believing those trolls and gosh haha.
I can't take it anymore. I'm just tired. I'm tired of letting people go out of my life. 3 times, I've had enough. Starting from Fairy, and then, Mystery H and now, Pie? How funny.
I just want him to stay, just stay, so that I can watch him from afar and guess what? It hasn't been a month but yet he's leaving.
Those 2 weeks, those memories we had, those weird questions, I'll miss all of them. You might change, I might change, we'll grow apart- really really really really really really really really apart and we might even forget every single thing that we told each other and you know, only time has the key, only time remembers, it'll never forget.
He already knew everything about my feelings towards him, not that I confessed to him, someone told him omg my heart and I would say yes, it was really awkward at first, it was really embarrassing at first (it still does) but I got used to it.
I longed to see him, but now I won't, I guess, now, I'm strangled in hopes, of him staying. I just want him to stay. I regret what I told him the other day. Shouldn't have typed those words. Because it'll never be okay. I'll never be okay. I typed those words as if everything would be fine and maybe he thought I would be just fine but no, bud, no.
Last wish, I hope he'll come back soon or maybe he won't ever change or something. That's all. I gotta do my homework. Gosh, too much wasting my time here *sobs* so, assalamualaikum.
Love you guys, bubblebye ^_^
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