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I miss the moments when I stay up late at night just to read MCHA and MCHA II: TI

Assalammualaikum.

Have you ever the feeling lonely? Being misunderstood? Laughing in front of your laptop without a reason just because you feel lonely? Thinking of what people think about you? Reflect yourself? 

If yes, then, you're just like me then.

I've been many obstacles throughout the years. 

But...

Being a coward I am, I distract myself with all those Kpop thing. 

It's been 5 years since I got into this Kpop world, being imaginative, thinking of maybe I can be with those idols. I've liked many idols that I eventually lost count. I've learned all those dance steps. I've memorized many songs that sometimes I mixed up the lyrics. I've cried because of my biases. I've stayed awake just to watch shows. I've stalked many idols before. I've actually learned their native language. You know, I did many things than I ever imagined as a Kpop fans. 

But no matter what I do, I just can't lie to myself that my heart is still empty. 

Some parts of heart are still empty but I just can't fill them up. Nappeun me. 

And sometimes I just wonder why am I like this. Why can't I move on? Why can't I be happy for anyone else? Why should I feel empty? 

Everything happens for a reason.

Someone once told me that. I know that everything does happen for a reason but won't it be nice if I actually know the reason why? I really want to. 

And maybe... 

Everything happens because I'm just an ordinary girl.

Sometimes I'm lazy, I get bored, I get scared, I feel ignored, I feel happy, I get silly, I choke on my own words, I makes wishes, I have dreams and I still want to believe anything can happen in this world for an ordinary girl.



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And... yeah... I don't know what to write anymore.

Homework? Too much. I don't wanna do all of them. 

And Hamizah is doing them rn. Why //sobbing on the floor

Assalammualaikum.



PAST ♥ FUTURE

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Mine ;
Name : A!da $abr!na
Nicknames : A!da/$abr!na/Angel/BDA/Blue Diamond Angel/Alien/Dodo/Clown/Aidada/Chanyeol's Wifey
Korean name : Park Angelina
Birthday : 14th May 1999
State : EXO Planet, Earth, Saturn
Status : Officially taken by Chanyeol

Likes ;
☆ Kpop
☆ Chanyeol
☆ Blogging
☆ McFlurry Oreo
☆ Geronimo Stilton
☆ Fanfics
☆ Rapping

Hates ;
☆ Anons
☆ Copypasters
☆ Kpop haters
☆ Haters
☆ Annoying person
☆ Liars

Facts ;
◕‿◕ Currently studying in SMART
◕‿◕ I express my feelings through fictions
◕‿◕ Sometimes I think I'm good in writing and sometimes I think I'm not
◕‿◕ Deep inside me, I want to write an English novel on my own
◕‿◕ Creating posters is one of my hobbies actually
◕‿◕ Love to read English novels but never really finish reading every word in them
◕‿◕ I can get so touched when I read sad fictions
◕‿◕ I love to collect quotes from fictions
◕‿◕ I only read angst fictions- kinda
◕‿◕ Wish I can be fluent in Arabic, English, Korean, Japanese, Mandarin and Urdu ASAP
◕‿◕ I don't really like to do the same thing over and over again. Get sick of it seriously
◕‿◕ I have flaws but I'm thankful for that
◕‿◕ I want someone who doesn't care about me embarrassing myself. Example: If I accidentally make fun of myself, then he would laugh and then he would say things like "haha you're so embarrassing but who cares? My love for you won't ever change." Cheesy enough heh?
◕‿◕ And I want that someone to love me for being random. Example: When I write about random things out of the topic we're talking about, he would be saying things like, oh you're so random, why do I like you in the first place and such. Too cheesy I kennot
◕‿◕ Sometimes I talk too much
◕‿◕ I am so not romantic but I love romantic things but I'm so geli with all those romance thingy

"Capture well the moment because it is evanescent."

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Sya-Syahirah | Ana Marlina | Ana Min-Ji | My Lost Star | You're Cold, I like! | Loving You Secretly | Can't You See? | Blue Diamond Angel | Chanyeol's Wifey | ASK BDA

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Stories of De Angel

I express my feelings by writing stories.

Synopsis !

Prologue !

Chapter 1 !

Chapter 2 !

Coming soon !

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My Asianfanfics Fictions

My Lost Star !

Can't You See? !

Coming soon !

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Recommended Fanfics

My Crazy Hot Aliens !

My Crazy Hot Aliens II: The Invasion !

My Arranged Marriage with EXO-K's Sehun !

A Taste Of Your Own Medicine !

Murder In The Dark !

Yellow Dahlias !

Love Letters !

Coming Soon !

Ordinary Girl

Tuesday, August 13, 2013 | 5:55 PM | 3 comments

I miss the moments when I stay up late at night just to read MCHA and MCHA II: TI

Assalammualaikum.

Have you ever the feeling lonely? Being misunderstood? Laughing in front of your laptop without a reason just because you feel lonely? Thinking of what people think about you? Reflect yourself? 

If yes, then, you're just like me then.

I've been many obstacles throughout the years. 

But...

Being a coward I am, I distract myself with all those Kpop thing. 

It's been 5 years since I got into this Kpop world, being imaginative, thinking of maybe I can be with those idols. I've liked many idols that I eventually lost count. I've learned all those dance steps. I've memorized many songs that sometimes I mixed up the lyrics. I've cried because of my biases. I've stayed awake just to watch shows. I've stalked many idols before. I've actually learned their native language. You know, I did many things than I ever imagined as a Kpop fans. 

But no matter what I do, I just can't lie to myself that my heart is still empty. 

Some parts of heart are still empty but I just can't fill them up. Nappeun me. 

And sometimes I just wonder why am I like this. Why can't I move on? Why can't I be happy for anyone else? Why should I feel empty? 

Everything happens for a reason.

Someone once told me that. I know that everything does happen for a reason but won't it be nice if I actually know the reason why? I really want to. 

And maybe... 

Everything happens because I'm just an ordinary girl.

Sometimes I'm lazy, I get bored, I get scared, I feel ignored, I feel happy, I get silly, I choke on my own words, I makes wishes, I have dreams and I still want to believe anything can happen in this world for an ordinary girl.

(Tell me what song is that)

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I actually have many things to talk about but I know, all of you don't really care about it so, yeah, lemme just write some things I don't even plan to write about.

Yellow(?) orange(?) oh God, I don't know what color is that but it seems so pretty. My mom told us that we chose the right color cause everyone else was wearing dark color. 

And... yeah... I don't know what to write anymore.

Homework? Too much. I don't wanna do all of them. 

And Hamizah is doing them rn. Why //sobbing on the floor

Assalammualaikum.

Love you guys, bubblebye ^_^