Express The Angel

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Monday, May 7, 2012 | 7:59 PM | 0 Alien

Okay, this is for Aina. He3x.

Yes, maybe Qistina is my true friend... But she's not with me in the class. In 1 Jujur, I'm just close to you. I was close to Nisa. See that? Past tense!

You have many friends! You have more friends than me, don't you realize that?! That means you're way better than me! You nicer than me! My luck? It's on my name. Aida, means luck/lucky.

Well, I did say that A FRIEND IS EASY TO GET. It is easy to get. You have friends. The girls in 1 Jujur are your friends! A CLOSE FRIEND IS NOT TOO HARD TO GET. Well, I don't know. Am I your close friend or just your ordinary friend? You decide it yourself. But I guess you have a close friend. And then, I said, TRUE FRIENDS ARE HARD TO FIND. The reason why I replaced the word 'get' with 'find' because if we don't find our true friend, we won't get it.

I've been through a lot of obstacles just to be with Qistina. Did I tell you what are the obstacles are? You see, lots and lots and lots of people always try to take Qistina from me. Every time I'm busy with something else or anything, they will take the chances... Including G. The reason why she became my friend is to take Qistina away from me. And you know, last year, I almost thought that I would lost her. But alhamdulillah, G couldn't take her away. Why? Because... Okay, I kinda brainwashed her about G. HAHA XD. Evil me!

You see, I always jealous when G talked to Qistina and then, they acted like I'm invisible. God, only God knows how does it feel to be alone. I was alone walking behind/in front of them. but luckily I had Phuah. Even though I always mad at her, not always but.. yeah, sometimes, but she still be there by my side. I'm grateful that I have her when I'm alone.

And this year... it becomes even harder for me to make her stay away from the people who are trying to steal her away from me. She's in different class so, I can't brainwash her as usual. Our relationship has become distant. If only I can do something about her, I will make her always be by my side, under my control. I am a queen control. I control her.

HAHA XD. Came to think about it, I miss when I have her in my life, sitting beside me, talking with me in the class. When I lost something or I couldn't find my thing, she was always there to search it for me. I need a friend like that. A friend that can help me find my things. A friend that cares me. A friend who is better than my sister. Now, when I can't find my things, I have to look for them by myself. And I hate it! I hate to be independent.

Aina, I am always here when you need me. You can share me your problems or anything. Seriously, even when I do my homework, I still can listen to your problems. It's a pleasure to hear your stories, your problems. Why? Because I was born to be like this. I was born to be a good listener. So, what's your reason to not share it with me, the one who sits right beside you? If you wanna talk about something, about your problems about your life or something, you can always look for me. I'll be gladly to hear everything. Even when you're just so mad with someone, you can share with me. It's okay. Maybe I can help you, you know...

I'm always here. Just remember that. Not just for you but for all of my friends. You know, people that don't know the real me, don't always share with me their stories because they thought I'm not a good listener. Because I talk a bit too much, I always happy and laugh... But believe me, once you talked about your problems to me, you'll feel a lot better. I will always show interest in hearing your stories.

Yes, what you need is a friend. And you have it, RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOUR EYES! But you just don't realize it. You see, try to be a bit open. Just let out everything that makes you stress or sad by telling YOUR FRIEND your stories.

When you wrote that... I'm easy to get new friends... I just remembered something. From standard 1 until standard 2, ALMOST EVERYDAY I EAT ALONE WHEN RECESS. Maybe not almost.. Maybe it's everyday... I don't have a lot of friends... I've always been overshadowed and left alone. And I don't wanna feel that again. It's my scariest nightmare. EVER. But unfortunately, I feel it now. I feel it when I go to that damn Smart test! Urghhh! I hate the smart test so damn much! I hate it... Cause I'm alone. I'm overshadowed by the people that can speak ENGLISH! I'm left alone. I don't have a friend there. None of them is my friend.

Okay, gotta solat Maghrib now. Assalammualaikum!

PAST ♥ FUTURE

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